18 Liao!!!

WOW!!!! 18!!! There are so many things that I can do at this age!!! Hehe!! Can go buy 4D without worrying, can go buy beer alone, can go clubbing without worrying that the bouncers would check my IC (even though I look so 21). Three years later, I would be able to buy my own car (if I have the cash that is if I have), I would be able to get my own apartment ( money again). Well time certainly will move very quickly. By the time I graduate from poly, I' ll be 21. (well, I think I'll look 30 by then) I just have no idea why do I look so old!!! So crap!! Then again I am rather tall as well (168 cm). I think my height could be one of the problems that why I am still single. But I think being tall is a gift. Not many people can be so tall!! Hehe!!

I am missing you!!!

This entry is dedicated to my Ah Ma and Ah Gong. Both of them have already moved on to the next part of life. I really miss both of them. Was talking to Brenda this afternoon. Realize how little she remembered about them. I really miss my grandparents. Today is neither their death date or Qing Ming. You might ask why I talk about them today. Why? I ask myself. I also have no idea. But does missing someone has to happen on a specific day??
Death seems so beautiful and scary all at the same time by just thinking about it. So beautiful because you have relief yourself of the job you have been destinated on earth. So scary because of the people you know missing you.(like me)
I don't if my Ah Ma and Ah Gong can see this. But I am still going on. When I read about how other people have their Ah Ma Ah Gong to dote, I get very jealous. It has been almost 7 years since you guys have left me. I missed the days during Chinese New Year when I went to your house in Kim Keat for visiting. It was so fun. I missed your cooking Ah Ma, I missed how you protected me when my mom scolded me when I was naughty. Why is God so selfish?? Why don't I have what my other cousins have?? I really badly wanted to bring my first boyfriend to you guys to see but I never will get the chance any more!!!
I know this is rather stupid to ask this. How have you guys been?? What is heaven like?? Do you miss us?? Any way I totally do!!! 阿妈，阿公 我很想你们。我爱你们。

It's a week more

7 more days and I'll b 18. For this year I don't really have anything I want to have or do. Well, it is kinda different. It seems so not me. Because usually every year, there is something that i would really want to have. But everything is so different this year?? I am worried. Maybe as time passes by, I have gotten numb to my material needs.(although i seem the opposite in front of people) But have I really gotten over this flaw of mine??

Valentine dae

Well, for starters, I totally hate the idea of valentine' s day!! First of all, i don't have a date (that's just nothing), next everything gets so damn expensive, then when you get one for yourself, you get laugh at!! Crap!! Why do people get blinded by the fact that you have to treat your loved one extra well on this stupid day?? I think that is just taking people for granted!! Everyday can be a valentine day if one just treat the loved one with as much love you can give!! Isn't that good enough??
Another thing is that why it has to be celebrated with an opposite sex?? Why when you celebrate it with a person of the same gender, others say that you are a homosexual?? Even so, homosexuals have FEELINGS too!!
Well, if todays posting gets rather pissed, it is because I have seen too many people being taken for granted!! Maybe I was one of them, but that was a very long time ago. At least, it is over now!!
Finally, I would like to wish all singletons a HAPPY V DAY. So what if you are single!! I am and I am loving it!!

Gong Xi Fa Cai

Gong Xi Fa Cai!!

Well, i have sort of went missing in action for quite a long while. I was busy with school projects!!(which i kinda learned how to enjoy them!!) I was also busy with the new house!! On touching this subject, there are so many things that has to be done!! It is kinda tedious!! But I think that hould be the way because I am going to live there in the near future what!!
On the eve of the lunar new year, went back to Beatty with Elaine, Zulia and Guo Wei (Zulia's boyfriend). It seems that I keep having this weird problem with my best friends' guys. Maybe we totally have different ideas. I have no idea!! Any way I behave the way I am. I totally hate the idea of putting of this really stupid facarde!!! Any way back to going back to Beatty.
Met up with Zulia( of course with Guo Wei) at Mac, Elaine was late. She lives in Bukit Timah!!
Was late for the concert, so we didn't see the how the orchestra performed. Maybe that could be a blessing in disguise.
So the concert ended, met up with Mr Tan, Mr Amos , Mr Ng and the other teachers. Hey, Mr Ng gave all four of us a red packet.
We had a show at PS. Well, at first that wasn't the show that I had intended to watch( Seoul Raiders) but i kinda enjoyed it.