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Saturday, December 30, 2006

I did something wrong.

I did something wrong. It affected my family, my best friend and my life. I am really sorry. Although my family has forgiven me, I feel that my best friend has yet to. I am really ashamed of what I have done and will not do it again.

I hope she will forgive me soon. I really miss her. Please talk to me again. I don't want our relationship to change. I need you to help me change. Baby, please.

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

Xmas!

Merry Christmas and a (not-so)Happy New Year. Had the (poly)class gift exchange session. Gave the gift to Chin Yee. I am glad he liked it. So did Jackson. Didn't expect that he was the one to exchange the gift with me. Seriously I thought it was a girl. Caught the movie "Night at the Museum". Really hilarious. I guess I ought to start on my writing stint soon, if not my muse shall be bored and leave me. Lame joke.
I had this idea of coming out with the novel(?) called Butterfly in the Rain. The storyline is about my heroine caught in the crossfire of traditional thinking of how women should behave and modern concept of sexual equality. Well, there seem to be many books on such topics. I guess I could try. Wish me luck! I hope this would be a great chance for me to be occupied on something and stopped thinking about that idiot. Hah.

Sunday, December 24, 2006

xmas shopping

Happy Birthday to my lil sis, Brenda! 11 liao loh. Cannot be naughty liao. Haha.
Went shopping with the family. OMG. People are queueing to get into LV! Ok,ok. I was one of the few. Not quite. My mom went in first, so all I had to do was skipped the line. Wahahaha. Did our shopping mainly at Taka (had a shitload of Taka vouchers). Bought shirts for my dad. Bought stuff for my lil sis too. Bought Royce chocolate for Amanda. Here's the pissing part. I asked for a champagne flavour. Went to pay at the cashier. Being blur, I happily took the recipet and went to collect my purchase. However, the sales girl at Royce spotted a mistake. The cashier boy keyed in 2 chocolate orders. Ok loh. Go change the recipet. I had to wait like an idiot while those 2 made changes. The sales girl then went to the counter and brought me my purchase. They wrapped it nicely in the reflective bubble wrap. When I reached home, I opened it to check. It wasn't CHAMPAGNE! It was white. Amanda was fine with whatever. But I chose champagne was because Amanda was of age and could drink. Sigh. Now I have to go back to Taka and get it changed. Idiots.
On a lighter note, I GOT A NEW HANDPHONE!! The one on my wishlist, duh! But not black. Got a pink. The black interior wasn't as great as the pink or blue. Amanda was to get the same phone as me but they didn't have blue. So I got the phone first, while Amanda had to wait for the stock to arrive. Oh ya. My line activates in 2 days time. Hehe. Hope it to be ready by Christmas. Hehe.
I am so excited for Christmas to come, though I know that it's impossible to fulfill my initial first wish for Christmas. Sigh.

Thursday, December 21, 2006

cute guys vs ugly guys

cute guys vs ugly guys.

cute guys:

total drool-maker.
but they can be total jerks too.

ugly guys:
turned off at the start by the looks.
but they are total softies.

why isn't there the best of both worlds? this sucks. i like cute guys(who doesn't?) but they are total jerks. so not the gentlemenly. is it because of the fact that they know they are cute thats why they get corky? damn it. maybe i should try their way (cute guys). think that i am pretty and behave like a bitch. haha. oh ya. i AM a bitch. haha.

Monday, December 18, 2006

nyr

my new year resolutions:

1) revamp my room before Chinese New Year (new coat of paint, rearrange furniture)
2) reformat my computer
3) reformat my external hard disk
4) burn all my stuff into cds
5) loss the weight (5kg?)
6) get contact lenses
7) clean out my wardrobe
8) earn lots of money
9) travel
10) make sure i fulfil the stuff above.

p.s: though i don't really follow.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

audition

went for an audition. super nervous. they read my blog. omg! afraid of the camera. haha. despite all the camera whoring. haha. i hope i don't look fat in front of the camera. now got to rush to do ndp. damn! totally no mood/idea of what to know! damn!

jie mei, thnx

mayb i read too much. i guess i did. too many unknown. if i were to remain that way, i might get hurt. i am not stupid. well, certain things just make you that way.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

ya thnx

hey thanks for ripping it out and leaving my heart to dry in the sun. thank you very much.

post note(15 dec): hehe.. was wrong.. hehe

Sunday, December 10, 2006

st james

headache now. hangover. haha. fun. 9am. no sleep.

Saturday, December 09, 2006

is this 辛福?

seriously, i have no idea what feeling i am really going through now. sigh. i have never felt this way before. really. more happiness than sadness. :)) i think i am going crazy. IMH here i come!! haha.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Happy.

I' m one HAPPY girl. Don't ask why.

Sunday, December 03, 2006

Christmas.

All I want for Christmas this year is a USD$10,000 deposit from Santa. Hehe. So I can buy all the prettiest and loveliest clothes, shoes, make-up colours that a girl can have! :))

Dyscalculia

Dyscalculia-
# Frequent difficulties with numbers, confusing the signs: +, -, ÷ and x.
# Inability to say which of two numbers is the larger.
# Reliance on 'counting-on' strategies, e.g. using fingers, rather than any more efficient mental arithmetic strategies.
# Difficulty with everyday tasks like checking change and reading analog clocks.
# Inability to comprehend financial planning or budgeting, sometimes even at a basic level, for example, estimating the cost of the items in a shopping basket or balancing a checkbook.
# Difficulty with times-tables, mental arithmetic, etc.
# Does better in subjects such as science and geometry, which require logic rather than formulas, until a higher level requiring calculations is needed.
# Difficulty with conceptualizing time and judging the passing of time.
# Problems differentiating between left and right.
# Having a poor sense of direction (i.e. north, south, east, and west) and may also have trouble still even with a compass.
# Difficulty navigating or mentally "turning" the map to face the current direction rather than the common North=Top usage.
# Having difficulty mentally estimating the measurement of an object or distance (e.g., whether something is 10 or 20 feet away).
# Inability to grasp and remember mathematical concepts, rules, formulae, and sequences.
# Difficulty keeping score during games.
# Difficulty with games such as poker with more flexible rules for scoring.
# Difficulty in activities requiring sequential processing, from the physical (such as dance steps) to the abstract (reading, writing and signalling things in the right order). May have trouble even with a calculator due to difficulties in the process of feeding in variables.
# The condition may lead in extreme cases to a phobia of mathematics and mathematical devices.

Well, mine's a mild case. I read 3 digit numbers weirdly. Haha. The middle is the last, the last as the middle. Kinda easy to correct.
Your Element is Earth

Your power color: yellow

Your energy: balancing

Your season: changing of seasons

Dedicated and responsible, you are a rock to your friends.
You are skilled at working out even the most difficult problems.
Low key and calm, you are happiest when you are around loved ones.
Ambitious and goal oriented, you have long term plans to be successful.

Your Aura is Yellow

Your Personality: Life's too short not to have fun. Your bright energy brings joy and laughter to those around you.

You in Love: A total flirt, you need a lot of freedom to play. But you'll be loyal to that one man who makes you feel safe.

Your Career: You love variety in a job, and you probably won't stick with one career. You would make a great professor, writer, or actress.

Guys Like That You're Fun

You're the type of girl guys brag about knowing
That's because you're cool, funny, and laid back
You're smart enough to know how to be one of the guys
But flirty enough to know how to make them all want you

ehhh.

for those who read my blog regularly. and for those whom i told to news to. my mom's not suffering from cancer!! :)) god. i was sooo worried. i cried in school on friday. yeah. haha. i m a crybaby. partly for the fact i couldn't finish my work and for my mom. why? well, before i left for school my mom told me to get her medication. seeing so many packets, naturally i got sad. so in school that was on my mind. haha. silly me. but i guess who won't worry. haha. i m just glad its all over.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

ants!!

Ahhhhh!! It seems my entire room has been invaded by ANTS!! Ok, they aren't as harmful as compared to other pest. Ok, plus the fact that my room has been really messy for quite some time. Well, I did packed my room a bit just a moment ago. (The floor ain't done yet.. Hehe)
Wonder where these ants come from. Or rather what (sweet wrapper or whatever similar to that) attracted them to my room.. I thought I cleared ALL my wrappers.. Hmmmm..

Monday, November 27, 2006

pics to update..

Hehe.. Time to update the pics from the previous posts that I have promised.
At Vivo



Elaine's share of the pizza.
Cute rite? This shop at Vivo sells wooden toys.


I guess I'll stop here. Cos I got to organise the rest(Design seminar pics), plus I got to scan my neoprint with my sis. Ciaoz

Friday, November 24, 2006

the mask of me.

Why can't people see through me like what Jessie and Teja has done? Why don't people know the fact that behind every clown's mask is a sad story? Take a look at Kumar the drag queen. He doesn't have a great childhood. Get my point? Even Stephen Chow doesn't really clown at all when the camera is away. I guess for some strange reason, I am the way I am. Sigh. I guess I have been debating about this topic on the blog for like quite a long while. I am really sick and tired. So.. I'll still continue to laugh until the cows come home! I'll continue to be "high" as what I am now. Got problem with that ar? Got ar? Then go fuck yourself in the ass(Brit accent). I am not your daughter or whatever child you raised. I fuck care how you expect your child to grow up to be like. Time to stop the debate(mono-longue) now. :))

Thursday, November 23, 2006

photoshop

Well, its an open secret that I photoshop my pictures. But the past few pictures, aren't photoshoped. Sigh. I missed editting them. Sigh!

sick

Well, currently I'm at home. I didn't go to school today. 2 reasons for that. I want my sleep plus my throat hurts. Sigh. Was not feeling very well sometime ago. Sigh. Still need to do NPD funpack design. Lame-chop. Sigh.

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

yea! :)

I'm a happy girl today. Well, for various reasons. :)

1st: HEE KIAH IS NOT IN SINGAPORE!!
2nd: The clients like my design proposal!! :))
3rd: Hehe. Not telling you. :P

Saturday, November 18, 2006

yea!

got my suspenders!! :) i m a happy girl now!! :)

Friday, November 17, 2006

死性不改

new song!!(to me lah) hehe

再见了
我的宠爱
谁愿接受这种意外
你赞我天生可爱
不愿看着我离开

同伴也话我傻
喜欢受挫
宁愿情敌在伤我
人天生根本都不可以爱死身边的一个
无奈你最够刺激我
凡事也治倒我
几多黑心的教唆
我亦捱得过
来煽风来点火
就击倒我么
谁恋爱就多障碍
死性我不想改
如我没有你的爱
我没法活得来
情人的存在
是我从来都志在
能在我拱手让爱

我怕可一不可再
难道你被爱都有害
我确信天真不会错
威力会移山填海
同伴也话我傻
喜欢受挫
宁愿情敌在伤我

人天生根本都不可以爱死身边的一个
无奈你最够刺激我
凡事也治倒我
几多黑心的教唆
我亦捱得过
来煽风来点火
就击倒我么
谁恋爱就多障碍
死性我不想改
如我没有你的爱
我没法活得来
情人的存在
是我从来都志在
能在我拱手让爱

Thursday, November 16, 2006

dear santa

dear santa,

hmm, i think i hv been a good girl this year. pls send me an angel this christmas. den i ll be the best for all eternity!! pls!! pretty pls!! :)

zelda

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

just for fun

10 mins more to 5pm.. finished the ndp thingy. ok loh. tats all i can say loh. teja(h) is beside me. (she dun wan the "h" lah) sian loh. tot can go motor show bt haiz.. nv go.. think too tired to go too. haha. i think i m leaving at 5 loh.. go home slp!! nv slp the whole nite.. (actually slpt for 1 hr at 5am!!)

Monday, November 13, 2006

so true!!

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||||| 63%
Stability |||||||||||| 43%
Orderliness || 10%
Accommodation |||||||||| 36%
Interdependence |||||||||||| 50%
Intellectual |||||||||||||| 56%
Mystical |||||||||||| 50%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Religious |||| 16%
Hedonism |||||| 30%
Materialism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Narcissism |||||||||||| 43%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Work ethic |||||||||| 36%
Self absorbed |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Conflict seeking |||||||||||| 43%
Need to dominate |||||||||||||| 56%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Avoidant |||||||||||| 50%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Wealth |||||||||||||||| 63%
Dependency |||||||||||||||| 63%
Change averse |||||||||||| 50%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Individuality |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Sexuality |||||||||||| 50%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Physical Fitness |||||||||||| 44%
Histrionic |||||||||||||| 56%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||| 63%
Vanity |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||| 63%
Female cliche |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
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Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were very low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.


trait snapshot:
messy, outgoing, open, self revealing, ambivalent about chaos, unpredictable, not good at saving money, social, likes large parties, likes to stand out, risk taker, quick to make friends, does not like to be alone, rash, fame seeking, sarcastic, craves attention, social chameleon, low self control, food lover, not rule conscious, weird, assertive, not a perfectionist, anti-authority, thrill seeker, vain, likes to fit in, reckless, emotionally sensitive, leisurely, trusting


omg!! so true loh!! i guess my frens will be nodding their heads if they read this! haha.

update

first of all, i need a bottle of new mask. the one my cous gave me is about to finish. secondly, i need to rekindle my friendships with dome people. thirdly, i need to get ready for the morning's review with hee hee.
ok. wad hv i been doing these few days? monday was pretty rough for me. well, i hate mondays. hee hee din give me a break n stress us up again. haiz. therefore ltr's review. tueday was ok. oh ya. we played badminton. haha. almost forgt. well, my badminton skills arent good bt playable. haha. aiya. u swim with me lah.. :P we left early thus the sms : who give you permission to leave the studio at 4.30pm. You better have a good reason. well. this became the joke of the day. haha. ya, i m afraid of hee hee. i guess its time to face hee hee liao. haha. grades are one thing. personal development is another (sounds familiar)
wed we went to binne , singapore arts museum, smu etc. excursion day!! :) took lots of pics. will upload soon.
thurs, back to work.
fri, work. did one mock up.
sat, slack!! :P i knw i shldnt hv. but who could resist the tempation.. hehe
sun, model making day!! :)
now, time for bed!! :)

Thursday, November 09, 2006

tell me what's ethical.

is hacking into people's msn ethical? is invading into people's privacy ethical? well. some idiots are like tat.

Monday, November 06, 2006

pls stop asking.

ok. well. i was browsing some site. there was a topic abt design thinking/maturity. well. i just thought for a sec. i kinda realised i'm/"class", well isnt really design material. well. just take a look at starck, marc newson, karim rashid etc. well. all i can say these people had tat kind of faith in their design tat i feel i kinda lack. i guess i hvnt reached tat calibre where i hv full confidence in my design. well. i really hope for tat day to come. :)

haiz.

well. up again. to do my p5. great. haiz. kinda hv this little mind block. well. actually i m really tired. all i want is juz my bed n slp. god. still need 5 more sheets of a3 marker rendered sketches. so dun wanna do. shld do or nt?

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Thanks!



I would like to thank ALL those who looked down on me. :) I couldn't have done it without you.

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Saturday, October 28, 2006

哪個星座最會表現"曖昧不明"的關係?

> >第 1名 雙魚座 885 票 16% 第 7名 金牛座 391 票 7%
> >第 2名 天秤座 697 票 12% 第 8名 處女座 348 票 6%
> >第 3名 水瓶座 608 票 11% 第 9名 巨蟹座 317 票 5%
> >第 4名 雙子座 544 票 10% 第10名 魔羯座 270 票 4%
> >第 5名 天蠍座 506 票 9% 第11名 牡羊座 224 票 4%
> >第 6名 射手座 420 票 7% 第12名 獅子座 213 票 3%

哈哈。 其实是满对的。

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

No wonder.


You scored as English. You should be an English major! Your passion lies in writing and expressing yourself creatively, and you hate it when you are inhibited from doing so. Pursue that interest of yours!

Linguistics


100%

English


100%

Theater


92%

Journalism


92%

Dance


75%

Philosophy


75%

Sociology


75%

Art


75%

Engineering


58%

Anthropology


58%

Mathematics


58%

Psychology


58%

Biology


42%

Chemistry


25%

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
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no wonder, i often felt that i was doing the wrong course. shld hv gone to mass com. fuck!

Sunday, October 22, 2006

I'm tired.

Under all the layers of my superficial happiness, its all the troubles and fears and sadness one can think of. In these 19 years that I have lived, people would look at me and say I'm a happy child. But am I that way?
Yeah, true that as a child I really felt better and happier. With the utter comparison to my recent life, I realised that I kinda missed my dear childhood. Problems from family, friends, environment, studies, love, work etc all appear. Sometimes I really would like to take a long break from all these. So that I would be able to find my REAL laughter again.
I don't wanna grow up. It's a scary process. I still wanna be able to look up at the adults from a shorter height. When people all just wanna change for you and not the other way round.
So what if I'm easily found out. How much have you found? Or rather how much have you NOT found?
Contradictory. Fuck. Everyone's so contradictory to their own thoughts and words. There are opportunities in the world. Fuck that sentence. Opportunities are for those who grasp for one. Fuck that too. Do people who are trying to grasp for one get one? Rarely. Rarely do these people get it. So get how contradictory life is?
Oh another one. 好人有好报,坏人有坏报。 Fuck that too. People are always sterotyping one another. One question. Don't you get tired? Don't you think labeling are meant for canned foods? So humans ARE canned foods.
I guess people just don't get it. Maybe I'm the only one who doesn't get it. Fuck life.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

雨天

站在十字路的交点
该怎么走
我却只剩回头
除了你给的伞我再也没有
别的借口
去拥有你的什么
你能体谅我有雨天
偶尔胆怯你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现
谁能体谅我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远
牵手和分手来自同一双手
做回朋友
我却为何不懂挽留
你能体谅我有雨天
偶尔胆怯你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现
谁能体谅我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远
是否太晚路已走远
我的眼眶泪太满
走不回你身边
你能体谅我有雨天
偶尔胆怯你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现
谁能体谅我的雨天
此刻脚步会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远



现在我的心情就像雨天。

Mosquito bus?

I was taking 86 home from tution. The ride was pretty peaceful at first. When the bus was moving to the Seletar airport area, something black and small was flying near me. So instinct told me to kill it (a.k.a smack it lah) and then.. BLOOD!! I looked closely at my "kill", it was a mosquito! A mosquito on a BUS!! It was pretty scary. So after I became slightly paranoid. My paranoia was confirm when I saw more flying bugs near the exit of the bus. Of course, I was scared. Paranoid too! Some few near me (I was seated opposite the exit) I moved my legs so as not to be their meal. OMG. How did mosquitoes board the bus? They didn't even tapped E-Z link card. I guess probably during the turn towards Seletar after Jalan Kayu. There were some plantations there. Scary!! Oh! I took a picture of the dead bug.

Sunday, October 15, 2006

here's the pics.

nt much though. wasnt really convenient to take out my cam. din even take any pics wif the celebs. if u wanna know who i saw, ok. saw dick lee, pierre png, andrea de cruz, shan wee, clarence lee (make up artist), nadia, front ppl (no eunice olsen though). pretty cool.
but one bad thing was that my contacts were giving me a rather hard time. sigh.


hmm..

finally i gt to club. haha. so i m nt a "clubbing virgin" liao. :P rubbed shoulders with celebs. took some pics. felt pretty. haha. blog more n pics ltr. tired.

Monday, October 09, 2006

ohh.. wow.. hmm..

well nt really blogging. juz a little update. i m going to the st james power station this sat.. hehe. hope i can meet some celebs there.. :P

Saturday, October 07, 2006

I'm a creature of habit.

Great job to myself. Wrote somewhere not to blog... well, I guess that humans are just creatures of habit. Hmm. I think I'll be changing site address soon. I can't be forcing people to listen if I don't start so myself. Hmm. I guess I'm destined to be the type of person who has to be the one that makes the sacrifice. Maybe so. Hmm. Though my mom would think otherwise. Who wants to see their kid to suffer. Will inform the correct people about the URL change soon.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

hehe..

i guess nothing much to blog abt.. ah! i think i ll blog my cam-whoring pics agn.. hehe. sad thing this time is tat most/the better ones are in my lappie.. i m using my desktop though.. :( [dad chiong kong my com.. :(.. dun ask y] well.. i ll jus make do loh.. hehe.. my frindge gt longer so i could clip it liao.. hehe.




Wednesday, September 27, 2006

i m starting anew..

it seems rather scary n unfamiliar.. omg. haha. i guess i ll b the same me bt rather taking a fresh step in the strange familiar. shld b good rite? hmm. let's pray so.. :}

Monday, September 25, 2006

Found this on xiu yue's blog. i m bored lah. :p plus i miss doing all the autography stuff in primary sch..

001. Real name: zelda woo rui shan
002. Nickname: zel
003. Single or taken: Single (any takers? lol)
004. Zodiac sign: Rabbit :)
005. Male or female: female
006. Elementary Sch: Cedar Primary
007. Ipod: nope.. :( unless u gimme one :D
008. How many buddies on ur list: blurred?
009. Friendster name: 'ms' -Z-
010. Hair color: Dyed reddish brown
012. Hair long or short: in between
014. Eye color: black
015. Are u health freak: ehh.. no.
016. Height: 170. proud of it :)
017. Do u haf a crush on some1: no at the moment.
018. Do u like urself: YES
019. Braces: no. perfectly aligned.
020. Think u're awesome: YES (for now?)
021. Piercings: my ears.
022. Tattoo: nope. bt i wan one on my butt. :P

Your 'Firsts'
024. Surgery: Does dental count?
025. Piercings: ear
026. Best friends: Pang Wai Leng :)
027. Award: I gt 3rd in class in kindergarden.
028. Sport u joined: Basketball
029. Pet: chick
030. Vacation: Taiwan, Taipei.
031. Concert: Emily Chow (周华建) NKF free concert.
032. Love: haha.. some malay guy who attended the same kindergarden as me. forgot his name though.

Favorites
033. Movie: Matrix
034. TV show: Goong :)
035. Color: Red, Black, Purple
039. Drink: Red Wine
040. Body part excludin face: Butt & breast :P
041. Cartoon: Smurfs
042. Piece of clothing: Brazilian underwear. :P
043. Brand of clothing: Zara, Mango & Topshop
044. Thing u slp with: pilliow, cushions, bear, blanket, bloster, dogs, care bear. :)
045. School: Beatty. My sec 3-4 class only.
046. Animal: Dog.
047. Book: Shopaholic
048. Magazine: Cleo, Style, Vogue
049. Food: I love all food. :)

Now
050. Im drinking: nothing
052. Im abt to: type? n more typing?
053. Listenin to: 遥远的她。(cantonese) :)
055. Waiting for: inspiration.
056. Watching: monitor?
057. Wearing: red headband, pink specs, bra, underwear, green spag top, shorts.
058. Want Kids: see how first.
059. Want to get married: see how first too.
060. Careers in mind: yes. designer or stewardess if i cant do design.

Which is better with e opposite gender
068. Lips or eyes: lips
069. Hugs or kisses: hugs
070. Shorter or taller: taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
073. Nice stomach or arms: arms
074. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
075. Hookup or relationship: relationship
076. Sweet or caring: caring
077. Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant
078. Kissed a stranger: nt yet.. :P
079. Drank bubbles: Of coz.
080. Lost glasses or contacts: yes, both.
081. Ran away from home: nt really
082. Broken a bone: no
083. Got an X-ray: yes.
084. Broken someone's heart: i guess so?
086. Turned someone down: yes
087. Cried when someone died: My granddad.
088. Cried at school: yes. seems like every year once..

Do u believe in
089. God: maybe
090. Miracles: maybe
091. Love at first sight: maybe
093. Aliens: wth..
094. Magic: yes
095. Heaven: i guess so?
096. Santa Claus: YES
097. Sex on e first date: nope, 2nd might?
098. Kissing on e first date: hmm..
099. Angels: yes

Answer Truthfully
100. Is there someone u want to be with right now: mayb

Name 20 people u can think of right now.
Dont read e question(s) until you've named e 20 people. At e end of this,choose 5 people to do this.
1. Amanda
2. Zulia
3. Elaine
4. Marilyn
5. Jackson
6. Jie Mei
7. Desmond Han
8. Choon Ann
9. Marcus
10. Jensen
11. Letitia
12. Hui Shi
13. Fabien
14. Guo Wei
15. Alvin
16. Sijia
17. Wei Yun
18. Wei Xian
19. Jeffrey
20. Tejah

How did u meet #14(Guo Wei): In Beatty.
What would u do if u didn't meet #1(Amanda): My life would be different.
What if #9(Marcus) n #20(Tejah) dated: Bo co leng
Would #6(Jie Mei) n #17(Wei Yun) make a good couple: even more bo co leng
Describe #3(Elaine): Far far far away.
Is #8(Choon Ann) attractive: Ehh.. can i say CMI?
Describe #7(Desmond): Tall, dark, in ns.
Is #12(Hui Shi) family members: Nope
What would u do if #18(Wei Xian) confesses to u dat he/she likes u: Say I love her back. :)
What language does #15(Alvin) speak: English with lots of slangs..
Who is #9(Marcus) going out with: Aiyo.. duno the girl's name.
How old is #16(Sijia): 19
When is e last time u spoke to #13(Fabien): Long time ago...
Who is #2(Zulia)'s fav band/singer: varies.. frm 5566 to jj to cao ge to fir to jolin..
Would u ever date #4(Marilyn): Hell yeah, she's lover no. 1 :)
Would u ever date #1(Amanda): Duh.. my sis rox.
Is #19(Jeffrey) single: Not sure.
What's #10's(Jensen) last name: Wong
Would u ever be in a relationship with #11(Letitia): Friendship, of cos.
School of #3(Elaine): In some Swiss Uni.
Where does #6(Jie Mei) live: Hougang
What's ur fav thing abt #5(Jackson): His like 大哥。
Have u seen #2(Zulia) naked: Near naked though.. :P

People to do this:
Amanda
Zulia
Elaine
Marilyn
Jie Mei :P

PISCES WOMAN

She likes to be in a dream world than to be in reality. She is weak and
sensitive when it's come to "Love". She can cry if her best friend is
breaking up, and she can be over excited when her friend gets a new boy
friend who is a good looking and rich even it is nothing concerned her at
all. You might be surprise to see that she is shy just because she is in
love. More or less it will be in Pisces woman. She loves small animal and
gifted in training animals.

She has sixth senses and she can guess what will happen next, it's her
nature. Even she has a good sixth senses, she can not pick or foreseen her
own choice of lover. She can not tell if she meet a sincere guy or a one
night stand guy.

She likes to buy and pick her own cloths. She likes to dress cute and be
cute. Pisces woman tend to be a good looking woman and she has a nice skin.
Her hands and feet are small and soft. Pisces woman loves to shop for shoes
as if she collects them. She is a hot lady that everyone wants her. Whether
she has a man in her life or not , she will never try to over powered any
man. It's not even in her thought.

She thinks man can handle things better, and she will make her man feel that way. She is an easy going person, so being with her is easy. She is a
confident woman and likes to make people who stay with her happy. She knows
how to please and how to comfort a man. If something is wrong, she will try
to make other people belief that it's must be because of someone else, not
because of her love one. She will not push her man to be ambition but to
make him feel like he should be happy with the way he is now. She is happy
with you for what you are now.

A Pisces woman , if she has a bad childhood, she will always remember it and
it will make her a very unhappy person. She will pity herself and feel sorry
for herself. She tends to hurt herself with out knowing it and so vulnerable
to drugs (real drugs or just sleeping pills). She has many choices and you
can never tell which path she going to take. If you love her , then hold her
tight because she never knows why she did what she did or what she will do
next.

A complex character.
You may think she is a shy innocent type and can not
hurt anyone, then you are wrong. You might think she is a fragile person who
needs protection, wrong again. She has been through a lot, a tough cookie.
She is a dreamer and love the word "Love", so she is the type who will buy
gift for anyone for any occasion, especially if it is a gift for wedding or
an anniversary even for someone who she does not know so well.

Be very careful if fall in love with Pisces woman. She can be a total
different person before and after. She can be an angel before and later a
witch, but everyone is not perfect, right? She will be soft and gentle most
of the time, so not to worry. She is emotional and extremely sensitive when
she frequently got hurt. She is the type who can cry her heart out.


She can have a secret fear inside, when she says she does not need anyone.
She badly needs someone to protect her, but sometimes she can hide that
feeling by being stubborn. She likes to hide her shyness and her weakness
from her enemy. She does not like to follow any fixed rules. She can be a
good housewife if you know how to handle her.

Many men will ask to marry her because she is a 100% woman. If she wants to
be sweet, she is a real angel.




i m really nt sure if i m like tat..

Sunday, September 24, 2006

stagnant.

i m keeping my life at a standstill. i m nt going to think abt wad to do wif some stuff. nt going to talk abt some stuff. nt going to pursue some stuff. nt going to resolve some stuff. i guess being this way i ll b happier. wel, i m happier though. :)

Saturday, September 23, 2006

遥远的她

让晚风轻轻吹送了落霞
我已习惯每个傍晚去想她
在远方的她此刻可知道
这段情在我心始终记挂
在这半山那天我知我知快要将别离没说话
望向她却听到她说不要相约
纵使分隔相爱不会害怕
遥遥万里心声有否偏差
正是让这爱试出真与假
遥远的她仿佛这风声跟我话
热情若没变那管它沧桑变化

但这天收到她爸爸的一封信
信里面说血癌已带走她
但觉得空虚的心仿佛已僵化
过去事象炮弹心中爆炸
在这半山这天我悲痛悲痛不已在胡乱说话
夜雨中似听到她说不要相约
纵使分隔相爱不会害怕
人无觅处心声有否偏差
正是让这爱试出真与假
遥远的她仿佛这风声跟我话
热情若没变那管它沧桑变化

遥远的她不可以再归家
我在梦里却始终只有她
遥远的她可知我心中的说话
热情并没变那管它沧桑变化
遥远的她不可以再归家
我在梦里却始终只有她
遥远的她可知我心中的说话
热情并没变那管它沧桑变化


我好喜欢这首歌。是张学友唱的。很好听。:) 不过歌词满伤感。

Monday, September 18, 2006

marilyn's home tml!!

i cant wait to see her agn! i hv soo much to tell my baby!! miss ya! muacks!

Sunday, September 17, 2006

ok i'm crazy.

so i need to get a doctor's letter to certify that i'm mentally unsound? haha. i m like totally guy korean-guy crazy now.. wahaha. there's daniel henney (ok i understand his half. well, i dun care..:))

, then there's joo ji hoon. omg that guy is like sooo skinny.. pls eat more.. haha.

not forgetting rain too!!

awww.. i guess i need a doc's letter..

Friday, September 15, 2006

why guys in singapore are sooooo short?

haiz.. everytime i watch my korean drama.. i feel bad for the guys here.. i guess the average height for korean guys are like 1.8m? n the girls will be like 1.68m? i kinda feel inferior though.. having to give up the idea of wearing 2-inch high heel shoes to accomodate the modern day singaporean guys. haiz..
when i was watching goong, kim sam soon, sweet 18; i realised that i'm like almost the same height as most of the actresses!(kss is like 1.7, yoon eun hye frm goong is like 1.68m, han ji hye is like 1.7m) the best thing is that all of them wear like 2-inch high heels and are like still shorter than the guys!! haiz.. i oso wan!! :(
i really envy korean girls.. **sob** we are like of abt the same height, and they can wear heels EVERYDAY!!! n here i m struggling to walk in heels because of the "lack of experience". damn it. haiz.. i dun care. from now on, i ll wear my heels no matter wad! humph!
i m nt even comparing wif the "ang mo"s :( its wif ppl similiar to us!! asians!! **sigh**. i knw most of the time it has to do wif the hereditary part. haiz.. bt i guess there are ways of growing taller den ur parents rite?
sad.. i m a sad 1.7m totally super out-going, crazified girl now. haiz.
if i meet my prince, pls be 1.8m?(taller will be better! i can wear higher heels! :)) pls weigh 70kg? pls hv shaggy hair? pls hv big hands? pls be tan? (i dun like guys that are soooo fair. they snatch the limelight frm girls) pls wear size 10 shoes?
i guess that's abt all for my prince to be like? haha.

Goong

Awwwww.. super love that show.. :) very nice.. :)
very sweet too!! better den full hse.. well to think abt it. full hse is starting to bore me leh.. really recommend the show. thanks elaine.. if u din tell me abt it, i guess i won't go rent it too. hehe.. u come back i let u see loh.. :)
cant wait for goong 2!! :) i love the prince of the show! shin goon!! ~i'm melting nw!~ awww.. the cast shld like come to singapore to promote the show!! awwww.. i ll go!! ~melting~ haha..
if there's a prince for me.. ~ sheepish grin ~ it has to be him!!!

cute rite? haiz.. ~ melting ~

Sunday, September 10, 2006

god damn it.

remember when we were like in primary school and preparing for some running event, the pe teacher would always say, "keep running, don't look back". totally true. damn. why do i always look back? damn. i m like always saying about me moving so quickly in life. damn. its all a lie. i so feel like stuffing my entire head in the toliet bowl. fuck it. (borrow choon ann's catch phrase) life sucks.
thnx to this guy for the advice he gave me. really. yea. i ll like treat this holiday like my rehabilation period. haha. sounds really ridiculous. haha. well, i guess i am ridiculous. haha.
I love myself.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

i miss my babe.

damn sian. my babe left for china the day before. actually i kinda miss talking to someone with similiar interllect. i feel that my IQ has just dropped by 10 points. haiz. starting to be bimbotic liao.(stupid girl playing at the back) die. i dont wanna be deemed as dumb leh. (~stupid girl~stupid girl~stupid girl~) why isnt there enough "smart" ppl out there? sian. life sux. why cant i meet more ppl of some interllect. damn it. haiz.

Thursday, August 31, 2006

the angel wears "this fashion"

i'm a 穷 person. so i wear "this fashion" loh. :( gt to see the movie "the devil wears prada" with my babe. seriously speaking, i hvnt really seen a movie in like donkey years lah. i hvnt had so much fun in like so long. the movie is fine. good storyline. the entire show reminded me of ppl with entirely no working experience. i m nt going to do a review on the movie coz i m nt paid to. i ll juz give my 2 cents worth. i think ppl like my sis shld go see it.
i guess if u cant deal wif office politics, den too bad.

went for dinner at the balcony with zulia.

tired liao. think will blog tml/in the day. i think the pics shld be done by then.

原来我没那么坚强。

你们错了。我不是金三顺。 我是我。 不可能是别人的。我也没她那么坚强。我不会告白。也不会做好吃的蛋糕。 也没她那么肥。看了她的节目, 就决得自己瘦多了。头发阿。 根本都不像啦。 不过她的眼睛却比我大。 我直有密密眼。 :(
没办法生来就这样。
你看我们有这么多的差别。 我像她? 我真的没她坚强。我直会躲一边哭。 好懦弱。 其实我也不想。也不知为何这样。我好像找回以前的我。找回那时快乐的我。现在,一点也不快乐。好想念同学他们。以前跟zulia, elaine 和 marilyn 他们的日子。以前一起吃饭。

Monday, August 28, 2006

scanteak.. mind block.

damn, i 'hv gt a fucking mind block. in a few hrs time, i m going to sch to kana shoot plus demoralise all over agn. fuck. i tot that crit thing is susposed to b on the 23 of oct? y today? fuck. ppl are so fucking flickle. pls decide quickly. dun waste my time. time=$$ lah.. u rich can waste loh.. i nt rich mah.

She moves in her own way

So at my show on Monday
I was told that someday
You'd be on your way to better things
It's not about your make-up
Or how you try to shape up
To these tiresome paper dreams
Paper dreams honey

So now you pour your heart out
You're telling me you're far out
You're all about to lie down for your cause
But you don't pull my strings
Cause I'm a better man
Moving on to better things

But uh oh, I love her because
She moves in her own way
But uh oh, she came to my show
Just to hear about my day

And at the show on Tuesday
She was in her mindset
Tempered firs and spangled boots
Looks are deceiving
Making me believe it
And these tiresome paper dreams
Paper dreams honey, yeah

So won't you go far
Tell me you're a keeper
You're all about to lie down for your cause
But you don't pull my strings because
Cause I'm a better man
Moving on to better things

But uh oh, I love her because
She moves in her own way
But uh oh, she came to my show
Just to hear about my day

Yes our wish's that we never made it
Through all the summers
We kept them up instead of
Kicking us back down to the suburbs
Yes our wish's that we never made it
Through all the summers
We kept them up instead of
Kicking us back down to the suburbs

But uh oh, I love her because
She moves in her own way
But uh oh, she came to my show
Just to hear about my day

But uh oh, I love her because
She moves in her own way
But uh oh, she came to my show
Just to hear about my da

i kinda like the kooks.

Friday, August 25, 2006

i promised.

1. 7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME
- crazy!
- tall
- high class(?)
- lame
- loud
- talkative
- weird

2. 7 THINGS THAT SCARE ME
- cockroaches
- sudden boos
- ghots(?)
- the future
- not knowing what death is like
- nt able to complete poly
- rejection (who isn't?)

3. 7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT
- 那女孩对我说
- Naive by the kooks
- SOS
- Saying goodbye
- Hate me by blue october
- 完美
- Mr Q

4. 7 THINGS I LIKE THE MOST
- my lips(hehe)
- my gals(marilyn, zulia n elaine)
- my lashes with falsies n mascara
- my lappie
- chocolate!!!! hmmmm..
- sparky!!
- my family(i think that's the love)

5. 7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST
- fuck
- shit
- kao
- damn
- jackson, 我爱你。fake confessions.
- ehh.
- haha

6. 7 PEOPLE I WANNA SEE DO THIS
- amanda
- laine
- zulia
- jensen
- marilyn
- jiemei
- class peeps?

is it called 尴尬?(my ass)

i think i mayb shld say ba.. well i m nt like some ppl who openly confess (real) likings to ppl. fake ones are juz for fun. since p6 has ended i think its abt time.. i m still kinda shy abt the entire thing though. haha. (shy my ass) haha. i think is the thought of rejection. i guess that's so. well, who isn't? we are all creatures who love "face". esp singaporeans! haha.
today, was kinda weird. i think i was more like taken aback. taken aback by wad? haha. well, this person came. ( i'm still rather sceptical.) erm. i juz took a glance. that's all. nothing more den that. haha. n i knw that my behaviour was rather quiet when this person was around. pls do nt ask y i din behave like on normal days. coz i really have no idea so. plus i guess sms, msn, phone chatting are totally different from meeting any one in person. esp when its someone who you either hvnt seen b4 or hvnt really met in a long time. thinking abt it, i dun really feel weird meeting my primary sch frens. mayb its who. could be. "blush" haha. i DO blush? haha. i thought i was too dark to blush. haha. lame joke.
i think this person sort of knw? duno oso good. knw oso.. gt nothing to say abt tat. even so, i think i might nt wanna think abt wad u are going to do or say or even think. i knw i'm nt the best option(?) for u. i knw i' ll nt make a really good companion, frm past experiences; i m a super difficult gf. nt material-wise, as in i'm hard to get. very unpredictable. i m nt chosy(good point). haha. its nt the mood swings. its more like character. i'm rather hard to sterotype/categorise.
i'm like 19 nw. so i think i shld b able to handle rejection(?). i think at most cry loh. haha. at most gain a few pounds loh. at most gourge on ice-cream n chocolates loh. at most bcome a workaholic. at most find a other guy; cos the forest is soooo big. at most suck it up and move on with life. its no the end leh.
hey. i gt 条件 one. i m nt say ugly(lookable). so i think there shld b one for me. rite? 月老 sure gt one red string for me. i believe so. i think i m juz forgotten by him to connect. haha. so.. hey 月老先生,别忘了忙我搒线。我已等了6多年。记得, k?
ok i juz wrote a indirect confession plus a motivation to myself in case of rejection(most prob).

加世界

总想好把的希望没有看见你哭
看你默默的走在那里我想不到的眼泪早已淹没在心里
我的心里看着你的一切我走在坐位上握着你的项链
窗外的云云覆盖了夕阳我想那天雨天起你的彩虹会出现
不知道那一天会是哪一天
我总是走在老天安排的不归路任我在反复去找你的一片夜里
人都不放忘着
世界慢慢的把那些点滴往前迈着你的手放不开我的心也走不开
你的爱我已经找不到
我坐在坐位手里握着你的项链窗外的云云覆盖了夕阳我想那天雨天起
你的彩虹会出现不知道那一天会是哪一天
我总是走在老天安排的不归路任我在反复去找你的一片夜里
人都不放忘着
世界慢慢的把那些点滴往前迈着你的手放不开我的心也走不开
你的爱我已经找不到

i m nt really sure who sang it.. bt when i dl it, it was under 周杰伦. doesnt really sound like him. bt rather nice..

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Finally its ALL over!!

I m back!! Missed blogging. really stressful leh.. mayb i really expect alot frm myself. i m in sch nw.. will blog more at home.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

my wake up call!!

Miss Zelda,

Pls stop blogging, stop photoshopping pictures, stop watching videos, stop gaming, stop daydreaming and just finish the fucking P6!!! When its all done, you can do what ever you want! Ok? Thanks.

Zelda

Monday, August 14, 2006

i want a new wardrobe!!

i really liked beyonce's wardrobe frm the music video deja vu.. esp the puffed sleeves blouse!! can any one be kind enuff to buy/give me those stuff?? pretty please..

Saturday, August 12, 2006

some stuff is did on the com..





(slight difference in the original colour)

Friday, August 11, 2006

i m bored..

well i shld be drawing nw lah.. bt lazy lah.. hehe.. damn sianz.. no show.. :(.. bored.. duno wad to blog.. sian..

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

pic whoring

finally can post.. (lets see if can..)(can liao!!)
Starbucks.
Sentosa.
Starbucks with woman.
Mother's day.
Quite sometime ago. With Wei Xian.
Day 1 after perm
K Box.
On the bus with Jie Mei.
haha.. I love cam-whoring.. hehe.. shh.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

time for pic-whoring!!

hey peeps!! its time for zelda's picture whoring episode! :P

sian half.. blogger cant upload pics..

Saturday, August 05, 2006

i miss lover no.1

ok.. ALL the emos are setting in nw.. i really miss her.. cant msn with her nw.. which we always do at this time. cant call her.. coz overseas calls are expensive.. i miss her. i guess i m oso missing the routines with her too. mayb i m selfish. bt i cant helped it. i miss her.
i feel weird. wonder hw is she n the rest are doing.. i knw i m kinda miserable. i miss u, elaine.. come back soon!

Friday, August 04, 2006

i miss her..

elaine has left.. i m having a entire experience of mixed feelings. its so weird that i dun really knw wad i m feeling nw. i do miss her. bt i guess being caught up with so much work, i think the 思念 will be lesser. no wonder working helps to munb the heart. i hope she liked the gift.. ^^ i wish her all the best.

continue to stay at the airport. went to bk to draw with jiemei. haha. i guess 60-70% of the time we were talking den doing work. haha. we talked more than we worked. haha. was kinda fun though. so jiemei is like wei yun so lame one. haha. so i m kinda fated to meet lame ppl. haha.

nw for something off topic. i wanna get a scooter.. so i need a class 2 license.

i love this baby. nt red lah.. mayb beige or off-white.bt i like the white tyres. hehe. i wan this cute little basket at the rear. hehe. den i would like a really cute peace sign helmet, pink colour is ok. hehe. ok lah.. i m being coming 女人 liao lah.. hehe.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

i study in a fucked up sch

well, i made a wrong choice aft my o lvls - to come to nyp to do id. hah. shld hv tried all ways n means to get into mass comm. fuck. wad to do nw? stuck it up n finish the final lap. actually i dun really hate design. bt due to some ppl/stuff (more ppl), i think i might hv to phobia of design. hah. (i can hear my classmates cheering now. "yea! less one competitor for design jobs!!") yea, wad eva. as if i fuck care. wad? dun like me using fuck? well, fuck you! i love using tat word leh.. wad can u do?
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
haha. u cant stop me.. can u? weakling... wahahahaha. u fucking suck BIG time!! wahahaha.

Sunday, July 30, 2006

Cabaret the Musical

sian.. i missed the musical that i hv always wanted to see.. Cabaret.. :( sadded plus sian one side.. :( [well i m pounting now.] i wanna see fei xiang as the emcee. even my mom agrees tat he's cute.. rarely, in my taste of men, my mom agrees tat the guy is cute. haha. so daughters do are like moms. we do hv similiar taste. haha.

so i missed the musical.. nvm.. on the brighter side there's Forbidden City!! cheaper tix somemore.. wahaha.. muz support local theatre productions. haha. bt i hv to look for a date for the one.. haiz. another headache..

Saturday, July 29, 2006

a so-called class dinner

haiz.. only 6 turned up.. haiz.. nvm loh. i think i ate a lot.. haha.

ok lah.. its gross. bt this is the aftermath wad.. believe or nt. we 4 girls ate like there was no tomorrow. haha. wad to do.. gt prawns, crab, crockles, lak lak(a type of shell food), chicken wings, scallop, herbal soup(rojak style though), the list juz goes on.. so.. juz eat lah.. the singaporean style leh.. wahaha. i think both elaine n (mayb)charles are becoming like singaporeans. haha. so-called great night.. more pics ltr.. too tired to even edit.

Thursday, July 27, 2006

tomorrow.

yea! meeting the peeps frm my sec sch class. woohoo. well, i really missed the peeps. meeting peeps like charles. i hv sort of hvnt met him for 5+ yrs.


miss ya, peeps.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Hawthorne Heights - Saying Sorry

These colors will not change
You change the way I see them
These words will fade
when you explain why you hate them
we are the same

She keeps repeating all that she needed
She says she's right here, she seems so distant

Saying goodbye this time, the same old story
Seeing you cry, makes me feel like saying sorry

Just a few last hours, we gotta make this count
We're counting backwards
(Just a few last hours, we gotta make this count)
We're falling forwards.

She keeps repeating all that she needed
She says she's right here, she seems so distant

Saying goodbye this time, the same old story
Seeing you cry, makes me feel like saying sorry

Saying goodbye this time, the same old story
Seeing you cry, makes me feel like saying sorry

Saying sorry we're falling apart
wish we knew this from the start
Saying goodbye's the hardest part
Wish we knew this from the start

Saying goodbye this time, the same old story
Seeing you cry, makes me feel like saying sorry

Saying goodbye this time, the same old story
Seeing you cry, makes me feel like saying sorry

Saying goodbye this time, this time
Seeing you cry, makes me feel like saying sorry

love this song..

Monday, July 24, 2006

sentosa pics..

well, did a quick photoshop to some of the pics.





i love this pic of me.. hehehe

Sunday, July 23, 2006

siloso.. tanner?

haha.. went to sentosa today.. damn fun loh.. well, actually it's been a while since i went there. i think i last time i went there was like 10? i duno.. donkey years lah..
i hv 1/3 of the pictures. haha. we ALL brought cameras. well, my cam is like the oldest n the most loose-wired one. so i dun really hv many pictures. i guess most of them are with elaine. coz her cam's the best!! a 5 mega sony loh.. :( (nvm i m getting my RED nikon s5 soon, wahahaha) i m editing the pics.. so nt so soon loh.. hehe..

Saturday, July 22, 2006

i hv been sleeping

due to the lack of sleep for the past few days, (yesterday was the ultimate. i didn't sleep for the entire night.) i slept for almost 24 hours. total hibernation. the past few days i have been sleeping for 4 hours or lesser. thank god, ms tan's project is sort of over. all i have to do is to edit the pboard. heng. heng my product is ok.
meeting the girls (zulia and elaine) tomorrow. we are going to sentosa for a tan. hehe. well, i m really turning pale though. but tomorrow we are taking the cable car. haiz. no money. thanks to all the printing. haiz. think i'll hv to borrow from them.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

i hv thick arms..

i m bored nw. or rather slpy bt cant think. i m like resting my head on my sofa's arm with my arm in the middle. haha. this arm of mine is really handy nw. all the fats are like a pillow.. haha. k i knw i hv to EXERCISE. haha. i did go swimming. hehe. 5 laps lah. hehe. everytime i swim is only like 30 min. so i think ok liao ba? haha. going tanning with my girls this sunday at sentosa. i wanna be bronze!!! i m like a super jaundice-like yellow tan now leh. its like damn disgusting loh. haiz. i dun wanna b in the middle. i wanna b the extreme. hehe. so sunday, sunblock will be only spf 30. wahaha

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

i love sparky

When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend.

Whenever I was “bad,” you’d shake your finger at me and ask “How could you?” — but then you’d relent and roll me over for a bellyrub. My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together.

I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because “ice cream is bad for dogs” you said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day.

Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in love.

She, now your wife, is not a “dog person” — still I welcomed her into our home, tried to show her affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you were happy.

Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I was fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I spent most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate. Oh, how I wanted to love them, but I became a “prisoner of love.”

As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose. I loved everything about them and their touch — because your touch was now so infrequent — and I would’ve defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway.

As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose. I loved everything about them and their touch — because your touch was now so infrequent — and I would’ve defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway.

As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose. I loved everything about them and their touch — because your touch was now so infrequent — and I would’ve defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway.

A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the table and rubbed my ears, and told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to come, but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about her. The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her, and I know that, the same way I knew your every mood.

She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured “How could you?”

Perhaps because she understood my dog speak, she said “I’m so sorry.” She hugged me, and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a better place, where I wouldn’t be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend for myself — a place of love and light so very different from this earthly place.

And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my tail that my “How could you?” was not directed at her. It was directed at you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of you. I will think of you and wait for you forever. May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty.


My thoughts: i know that in like 10 years time, Sparky's moving on. i ll definitely miss her. through out these years with sparky, i hv nv call her "it" for a day. ^^ its always her or sparky. she like this person to the family. i love sparky..

Sunday, July 16, 2006

yest..

yesterday saturday, me n elaine went for tution. i m taking over xavier, her tutee. xavier's really cute. his very hyperactive. i think it might be a challendge. ltr for lunch, i took elaine to jack's place. we both ate steak. n we had escagots (snails). my first snails. had a really great meal.
aft tat i went for tution.

Friday, July 14, 2006

damn it, my printer fucking toa me

haiz. do until wanna die liao. den the fucking printer prints out gray stuff. fuck. i need purple nt gray. ahhhhh. murder me now!!

Thursday, July 13, 2006

damn happy

i m feeling much better. the past few days hv been super moody for me. bt today's really great. haha.
i feel really 辛福. i hv a really great family, great friends. i hv my own room, my own com, my own camera, my own mp3, my own handphone. i feel really blessed.

Monday, July 10, 2006

fuck you.

fuck the person who touch my com. knn. even marilyn dun even touch my com without my supervision. i curse the person to have all the fingers cut off. can't draw, can't eat, can't hold anything. fuck you.

i m evil. bt if u push the correct button. thanks mother-fucker. u pushed to button. now u die.

damn it

wtf was zidane thinking? haiz. any way it has been done. he kinda gave up his chance to touch the cup. mayb he wanted to be remembered as the bad boy of the field. haha. i m juz waiting for the interview of why he did the "human-header". shld hv used it for other means mah.. haiz. disappointed.

Sunday, July 09, 2006

MAAD

you guys shld really check out the stuff sold at MAAD. really cool place. who says singapore design is crap. juz go check it out. happens every sunday.

Friday, July 07, 2006

damn tired.

thnx to all the "chionging" (project). i feel totally lethagic. damn tired. i m nt surprise tat i would suddenly fall a slp while blogging. haha. k i shldn't continue complaining liao. den i go get my forfeited slp. bye!

chionging project again.

i had thought tat the "chiong-ing" of projects hv come to an end aft yr 2. who knew it nv ends. haha. i kinda regret abt my choice of the project. i shld hv done the other one. its like toooo late to change now. lets see wad reaction ms tan will get ltr in the day. or mayb i shld hv done pocky? haha. too late liao. haiz.

ps: i m like pandified. i cant feel my body. haha.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

GOAL!!! France is making it into the finals


this was the goal by Zinedine Zidane. though penalty. i think its enuff. kinda expected them to score more goals. Henry played well. tried to score goals. Portugal played well too. really nice footwork by C.Ronaldo. i think this guy has gt a lot of potential.




i like the french goalkeeper. save a few great goals. Fabien Barthez.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Happy Birthday, Dad

My dad's 49 today. Happy Birthday to him.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

i do wanna recover

fuck. fuck myself. i knw i shldn't drag too long. bt y did i do so?. fuck.

no, i m really fine. single-hood's really great


ok, i knw hw to do it. some one juz give me the parang. and yes, i ll b happier. REALLY HAPPIER.

mayb i shld juz stop lying. mayb i shld juz face reality. mayb i shld come clean. mayb i shld move on... i did try to move on.

i guess this could be retribution. and its really huge. a really big one. mayb i shld juz accept the others. mayb tats my way out? i duno. really duno. y is this happening to me? haiz.

Happy Independence Day

It's the fourth of July.. Happy Inpendence Day to the States.

Monday, July 03, 2006

i hate being superfical

i'll nt b blaming anyone. coz in fact its kinda my decision to be like tat. (though i really hate to be this way.) i guess society makes ppl tat way. bt i m really tired. really tired.

going to sch everyday is kinda like a chore for me. i hv to put on this mask everyday. a fun mask. though it entertains ppl. bt i m really tired. i miss those days in sec sch. i was more me.

i so wanna be the true me everyday. like juz being me. being mature n stuff. being like years older than my actual age. i wanna do that. the thing is tat i can be myself in front of strangers. i guess its probably easier. i duno. i think i gt to try to be myself one day. fuck wad the rest has to say. really juz heck care. i guess i ll be a happier person.

Sunday, July 02, 2006

my new squeeze..

yes... my "new" squeeze

tat's 李东建. hehe. ok. at first i was kinda annoyed by his super huge eyes. (i m jealous lah.) bt i think he quite 耐看 though. so i kinda hv fallen for him liao..

yes, i m mad... haha. bt i think he's damn cute... ok. in general, i like korean guys nw.. haha. tall, good-looking, stable(?) etc. haha.

post-note: jay chou is getting boring liao. the last i heard was tat he was with hebe? weird...

great job france!!

hahaha. din think tat the french would actually beat the brazilians again. woohoooo. i m really happy. zidane needs the victory b4 he retires though. haha. bt i guess the winners might b germany. lets see how loh.. hahah. damn happy 就对了.

Friday, June 30, 2006

what men really meant...

It's a guy's thing.
Translation: There is no rational thought pattern connected with it and you have no chance at all of making it logical.

Can I help with dinner?
Translation: Why isn't it already on the table?

Uh-huh/ Sure, honey/ Yes, dear
Translation: (Absolutely nothing. It's a conditionde response.)

It would take too long to explain.
Transalation: I have no idea how it works.

Take a break, honey, you're working too hard.
Translation: I can't hear the game over the vacuum cleaner.

That's interesting, dear.
Translation: Are you still talking?

I've got my reasons for what I'm doing.
Translation: And I sure I hope I think of some pretty soon.

I can't find it.
Translation: It didn't fall into my outstretched hands, so I'm clueless.

What did I do this time?
Translation: What did you catch me at?

I'm not lost.
Translation: No one will ever see us alive again.

We share the housework.
Translation: I make the mess, she cleans up.

well, i got this frm today's newpaper. damn funny. i realised tat be it my dad, a fren or whichever guy; they'll all come out with lame (in the female race context) excuses to coax us. haha.

Thursday, June 29, 2006

i love my girlfriends...

i love all of them.... (hey i did blog abt this though?)[sratching head now]
i guess i was thankful to marilyn, who 培ed me during like 55% of the perm. haha. (dun complain y 55% nia. muz be fair mah) thank god gt her. if nt i ll sure fall a slp during the perm; n mayb it might b a disastor. haha.

i kinda juz gt back frm sch. had the nafa test loh. so tired. since its free juz go loh. haha. (cos next time if take muz $$ one) its a fact tat since aft sec sch, my fitness lvl dropped drastically. u all might nt believe loh. really one loh. smelly smelly gt at least a silver during tat time. haha. i guess the reason/excuse could be no P.E (physical education). haha. missed those days. even sec 1 gt swimming loh. shiok loh. i think the doctor 害 me one loh. say tat apply tat cream cant go swimming. sianz loh. plus nt only staying fit; i m like losing my tan loh. haiz. turning white... gross loh. duno y girls nowadays like white? a healthy tan is good too. looks chio too loh. look at michelle chia. she's like super chio loh see damn chio rite. even i m a of the same sex oso thinks so. haha.

drifting off liao.

back to working out. i dun care liao. i think sat evening i go swimming. heck wad the doc says lah. swimming is fun. be it dry or wet. dry one can get $$ and workout the arms. wet one can workout the entire body, see hunks (depending on luck), get tanned, chill and juz relax. so wads wrong abt swimming? i love swimming loh. so wad no 身材. its my life wad. wahahaha.

hair

two years ago, i said bye bye curls hello straight hair. yesterday i said hello curls bye bye straight hair. no pictures yet. soon loh. haha.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

close the god-damn door.

haha. mayb i m really an atheist. haha. i realized i kinda fuck care abt religion
what the heck. (kk, zelda we know liao. u kinda like hv 10 mins to blog leh.) haha. it seems like i hv lost my spirit in my work. or mayb to drive. i feel that i hv lost hw to design. or mayb wad to design. haha. (i tot i did decide roughly wad to do?) i guess i need to find tat back. i guess i need to revive myself. die n 复活. haha. mayb i shld try tat. so come on. give me a parang nw. (parang sounds more local) stab me 43 times. (julius caesar was stabbed 43 times, more heroic) den later call jesus christ to revive me like wad he did for judas. haha. juz crapping. haha. might nt be lame. might b offensive. haha. so pai sei leh. juz for fun hor.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

another crazy idea.

i m now like currently listening to augustana's boston. i m thinking if i were to move out n go the boston to start my new life there. haha.
hw would i live in boston?
i ll b living in this really cozy apartment. simple furniture. mayb cottage style. haha. working at a local design firm. struggling with deadlines. probably the only asian there. wearing knitted sweaters when its cold. drinking hot chocolate from mugs. sitting at the coffee table in front of the fireplace drawing. mayb msning frens frm sg. refusing to club with colleagues. mayb hving a dog. most prob a retriever. mayb waiting for the right guy to show up too. taking long walks at central park with my dog. mayb i ll meet him some where there. haha. hoping life will be this peaceful.
just some crazy thought i hv.

Friday, June 23, 2006

my answer to marilyn's ring fananaza


chio rite... wahaha

here's another view.
the approx cost is abt US$1000. any nice guy out there wanna get for me can... wahahaha....