tired

i need wei xian. i m nt les. i juz need her. she's like a sister. listens to my bitching, my sorrows, my correct guesses abt someone. haha. i m so tired. physically n mentally. like a com tat has overworked. haha.
i admit i m selfish. haha. who isn't? we all wan a certain something frm tat certain person, rite? duh.
haiz. stress. i need a hug. a hug will juz ease the burden. a hug with a little squeeze will make them all go away.

习惯

我已习惯了一个人过日子了。 不需要你了。哈哈。 可能我已累了。 好像是吧！ 不想等老天给这个机会。 太久了。 人当然有限度的。当然会难， 可是我愿意尝试。 好吧！ 就这么决定。

part2

kk. this is my 2nd entry for todae within 2 mins. wad eva.
i rem b4 kim hao graduated, i asked him wad am i doing in this course? his reply was u will knw y u are here aft the attachment. i totally get wad he meant nw. its the sense of accomplishment ba?
everytime i get a work done in the company, i feel totally great. i think i like the thinking process too. haha.
i hope tat this will keep me motivated aft this. u knw. like the star wars movie - "the menace strikes back". lol. we knw who and who. hehe.

wahahaha

ok. today my mood kinda allows me to bitch abt in the blog.
i hv gt complimented on my work!!!! finally.
i did this <------. omg. took me like forever to get it done. i m really happy. haha. so whose rhino pro liao. no lah jokin lah. haha.

however, there are still some changes that have to take place. i gotta change the curtains, remove the circle thingy(mirror), redesign the lamp, make the shelves a little longer.
it may seem alot to do. bt i think it will make my model better. we all have to improve wad. ^^
i am juz sooo HAPPY!!!
another view:

i tot i can

i knew it was never gonna be easy. and it is still. fuck. haiz.

y?

y is singapore such an expensive place? y do we need money? y cant we juz 忍气吞声. y ppl dun understand?

y?

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i was told to do an interior model. sian. the com in the office cant render. my com cant detect my curtains, walls and table. haiz. redo loh. bo bian.
i love the curtains leh.

lols

lols. lols. yup i m tat fake. den too bad loh.

multi-tasking

yup! i m multi-tasking nw. i m nw doing my mask (is it meant to be said this way?) and blogging. lol. oh i almost forget. plus playing neopets. wads wrong with playing neopets. wadeva u say. i m using aloe vera mask. peel off. super cheap. $1 a pack. plus if ur face small (like me) den u can use it twice. lol. bt muz keep in the fridge. oh yes! i m oso listening to music nw too. cao ge's super woman. i like.
i hv been very blessed. my dad's back. so i can sit car. lol. dun hv to spend money. yah!
i LOVE my attachment. welll, i dun really love it. its ok. i juz love the fact that i m kept buy. extremely busy. plus tution. wahaha. make me a workacholic.

thank for the busyness.

i m so bz with work. so i guess i m thankful for that. keeps my mind away from certain thoughts. i gt to go tution later. after tat fetching my dad. i guess less contact is good. lol. i REALLY think too much.
to all my galfrens: dun worry abt me. i m picking up.

ya work.

start work. juz a "ok loh". doing homework nw. ><

i have to stop this

the more i think, the more i lose it. wad this person said is so true. i m definitely losing it. so here go eminiem's song lose yourself. lol. too bad for me.
any way u are so wrong abt me. i m nt like tat. tat's all i hv to say.

black

i look like her (emily) liao.

pride and prejudice

made a phone call to elaine. she was watching rented movies at tat time which reminded to watch some too. so i borrowed pride n prejudice. omg.
though i hvnt read the novel (which i will do so soon), the movie is utterly romantic. the conversations are so lovely. even bickering sounds sweet. mr darcy loves elizabeth bennet. mr darcy is so charming. if only men remained charming through the years.
the fact that i hv done literature throughout my secondary school years, makes me feel more. lol. lovestruck. always had been. though i did julius ceasar, i learnt alot from the language. if only there were a diploma in literature. i ll be the first the sign up. actually my favourite shakesphere's play or rather story is mid-summer's night dream. nt romeo n juliet. too passe liao.
i totally like the scene when mr darcy confesses his affections to lizzie. however she refuses him. i guess mr darcy has already liked/loved lizzie during their very first encounter. so sweet. true that he is a pig at human relations. lol. bt he is sincere. done so much for lizzie. arrange her sisters' weddings (eldest and youngest). i feel blessed just thinking about that scene. it is so touching. n yet this movie didn't win an oscar? it has won an oscar to me. lovely show.

walking out

left the hse yestday. finally moved my butt from the chair. i guess i need the walk. thanks xian. thanks for the phone call. thanks for listening to me. i guess i can be rather selfish. too bad.
headed to orchard. omg. too many 熟人. sian lee, crop!(frighten look), willie?. i guess shld nt hv gone to hereen. shld go to borders! i miss borders. i miss reading there. n its for free. plus the guys around tat side of orchard are much better looking. another plus point, lesser ah bengs! lol.

for the first time i realised that i m nt tat fat. lol. was rather surprised tat i fitted into tops tat are in M size. lol. tried this dorothy perkins dress size 8! omg. usually i m in between size. either 8 or 10.(mostly 10) lol. ok. i m starting to brag abt me getting slimmer.
walk down to little india. love the saris there. elaborate. beautiful. grand. n i wanna fit into one. lol. so, lose more loh. lol.

i wanna go borders. meet horward lo there (yean hui said she saw him there). his so 可爱looking. boyish. i guess i dun belong to hereen. borders, wheelock, taka. i dunno. but there is this place which i really like. ecentric attic. i love tat place. when is any one going to bring me there? maybe i hvnt met any one tat has the same weird likings as me. lol. hope to meet one soon. lol.

oh before i forget. we took some pics (me n xian). friendster is rather weird. i keep getting this response (fail to convert pictures). so i ll just put them here.

attachment

13 march. nus. computers. long bus trips. 9-5 working time. lunch. 5 day week. good weekends.

iZelda

apple has iPod, iMac, iTunes etc. so i hv iZelda (iZel for short), iBitch, iFake. ok iFake. so many things tat i fake. i feel that i m faking m own depression at the moment. wtf am i doing that for. wtf. weird me. lol. well, I M WEIRD. all my so-called true frens knw that i hv totally weird taste. i like weird stuff (or stuff that the norm thinks its weird). ok i admit, i like micheal bubble. weird for my age. i like linguire. wads wrong with tat? i like alessi stuff. (well who doesnt?) i think that religion totally is bullshit. (go condemn me, i fuck care) i think that punk is good. n i worship rainbows. i believe in fairies, dwafts, giants, unicorns, magical stuff.
fuck. i am going all over the place. the point is that i hate the norm. again. I HATE THE NORM. i hate the fact that people want u to be wad they want u to be. den wtf did god (or whoever) created mankind as an individual. den that whoever might as well create robots. duh. y the hell u complain for wad. i m nt like every girl who likes 5566? nt like those ppl who goes with ppl who are really popular. fuck popularity. i totally hate ppl who are so fucking hum ji. lol. hokkien for cowardice. want to do something juz do lah. wanna say something juz say lah
hum ji for wad. disgusting. ok i m like tat at times. fuck. i just shot myself in the foot. lol.
basically i dun believe in reincarnation. so to me u only this once. so y dun u live to fullest. too bad u are such a little person.