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Monday, February 27, 2006

me

i curse, i swear, i bitch about, i bluech, i fart, i fight, i scream, i slap, i wack, i do vodoo, i make a hell lot of noise, i whine, do u still want me?

Saturday, February 25, 2006

though i m not that religious.

ok. i m totally not a religious person. but here i wanna thank god for the extremely special blessing that he/she (why can't god be female) has bestowed on me. thank you for sending some one away. thank you for allowing me to be away from that little person for 6 months. thank you.

Thursday, February 23, 2006

all true..

i guess i know my situation pretty well though. not many TRUE friends. thanks teja. appreciate it. i almost went bonks. lol. i think too much. overly senstive. i am not stupid. i have a rather high IQ. i guess people with high IQ tend to have low EQ. lol. i really read too much into the lines. i guess its too much of me to ask people to read me that way too. yup. i m that weird.
thanks for the joke. funny. heart-breaking. fuck you.

fuck....19

ok. 19. ok. last year of my teens. people will be expecting you to start acting more maturely. at 18, there are still allowance for mistakes. 19. less mistakes are wanted.

u might think that at my age (19 or 18) i might be carefree and stuff like that, well, i am really afraid. afraid of aging, death, menoplause, wrinkles. sigh. i fear aging and death. ok. its totally not like me right. thinking about it now really freaks me out. i lost sleep for days juz thinking about death. why? fearing that i might just go in my sleep. haha. how foolish of me. well, its true that people just die falling asleep. though its rather peaceful, i still am scared. i have so many things to do. i wanna have sex, get pregnant, fall in love over again and again; wake up to my guy next to me, complain to him about the little things in life until he gets pissed, able to see my kids go to school, talk back to Mr. Tan(have to be proper) before i graduate, build my career, get my revenge to big fuck and tommy, etc.

too many. too much. yes. 19. damn. 19. shit. 19. no presents. 19. no wishes from ... . 19. fuck. 19.

i don't want to grow old. i want to be a kid. i have given up adding ages to make myself feel young. it doesn't work any more.

i admit it. i don't have many real friends. no body thinks of my as a pal. haha. been living in self denial for years. there might be one or two. i think that's all. yup! that's all on my list. the rest either want some thing from me or they just want another person to grow their frienster list.

so i guess its going to be a rather quiet birthday for me this year.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

i dun care

dun ask me wad i wan or wad i wanna do for my bdae. fuck. i am so tired liao. i still dun get wad i want wad. so dun ask.
well if u wanna knw. i juz wan a hug frm..... tats all. haha. if u cant den get me a ipod nano back. haha. i still said it.

Friday, February 17, 2006

yes i m a bitch.

i m sooo bitchy todae(could be yesterday). wonder wad BIG FUCK thinks tat. BIG FUCK 就是BIG FUCK.
F.Y.I. i think i am a bigger bitch den B.F (nt boyfren pui!) but bitches are lovely people. we only bitch ppl like B.F. wahaha
ok traumatise someone else too. hehe. i am so bitchy. haha
can nv be peaachy. omg. me nt equals to 小女人. haha. too bad for some guys.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

cropped liao!

hehe. cropped my hair. ok. its cropped. but better den cropped @ 90. hehe. ya i A.C can.

Monday, February 13, 2006

my complaint

wads with the big ass problem of ppl posing in front of a mirror! so ugly! i knw some of my frens do tat. but its really ugly. this shows that u super dun hv any photography skills. its ok if u gt a really expensive cam n its quite chio. but if its a hp or the cam totally cant make it in design, i advise u to stop it. ok. i admit tat my cam cant make it. even so. i wont do such stuff if i hv a cool cam. pls stop it. if realli u wanna take a full body pic, wad are passers-by for. ask nicely, there will sure to be one person to help mah. so thin skin for wad. den y god created the MOUTH. haiz.

if u ask, u might b even able to hook up a cute hotie or babe. the best thing is tat y take pics in the toilet? toilet pang meh? toilet siew meh? ok if its like zouk's new toilet or somethin like tat. even so, get some one to help.

if totally gt no one to help, find a risen platform/stand/item. put the cam on it. dun worry u are there to ja gar the cam wad. set cam's timer, preferably the longest; u need time to think abt the pose wad. when the flash goes off, va la! the pic is taken. learn to make use of the cam's features. as a designer, y we put in all these features is nt juz used for that special occasion; in this case the cam's timer to be used with a cam stand. any way, ppl juz improvise loh.

if its a couple(any gender) pic, help one take first. den the other. den photoshop it loh. dunno hw? ok. the one taking the pic first, pls pose in a way u are posing like some one is beside u. the other do the same but in the opp direction of the first. no photoshop?few options. can go buy. if u are a student, there's a student price. or the unorthodox method. can ask me (i nt so good) or xiaxue. wad! dunno her blog/email? nvm. blogsite is www.xiaxue.blogspot.com. email is xiaxue@gmail.com. her photoshop skills are superb! check this out! so u knw wad i mean. so stop posing in front of a mirror. dun! its ugly.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

bo eng n yet not so bo eng

fuck! my rhino died! hv to get the pass again! damn! that's the prob when u use 不应该用的cd. haiz. so now a bit eng. but still hv ms tan. so not so eng. weird hor. wad to do. haiz. "managed" to get the chinese fonts on adobe. the unorthodox way-i call it. any way all of us use "unorthodox" ways of getting things done. so if any policeman sees this blog, dun come n arrest me hor. coz u sure will hv at least one thing tat is nt orthodox! so i still can counter-attack. hehe. haiz. i do like the fonts tat i chose for ms tan (chines ones)

101 entry

ha! didnt even noticed i hit my 100th entry liao! haha!

i think i desperately need brain juice, time machines (or hermione granger's time turner) and sleep.

brain juice
wtf loh! my ideas nowadays totally suck! haiz! VI cannot make it, totally losing it for graphic, studio super unmotivated.....
if there is such thing as a brain juice donation, pls tell me! tag in the blog or email me! (cabbagelove@gmail.com)
i m going bonks liao!


time machines/time turners
i need to turn back the clock for a little while. (1 mth ago? ya i knw is nt "a little while". wtf) any wae this is probably the best idea (if possible) to salvage my life! haiz.

sleep
do i hv to sae any more........


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i guess my entire bio-clock/ lifestyle is totally topsy-turvy liao. when i think abt my frens lifestyle, i feel like "wtf i m doing in this course". haha most of them (not in ID) get at least 6 hrs of slp ba? i think i do get 6.... but is only for one week. haha. ok. i do get longer hols den them. so what. i still prefer the short-term effect. it is hard the get to normal leh. haiz. killer course. totally. killer course. yup tats ID! killer course. i am experiencing a prolong death. haiz. i guess designers are sure to die young ba?haiz......... think muz jia you liao.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

tired

as i hv told clare b4, my blog is set up for me to complain. so i can distress a bit here. i m down rite fucking tired! i wanna slp! but fuck! still hv khairul report to do! fuck! ms tan logo oso dunno a-sai or nt. sure die loh. stayed the entire nite (again). sure go to sch kao pei kao bu liao. haha. ppl pai sei hor!

Monday, February 06, 2006

hell

sian! shuay! haiz! ending sem liao! i shld be happy though! but still gt so much work to do! haiz! ms tan, vi, vincent, khairul report, com skills, m&m test, jeremy.... dunno if rhino gt any thing to do! haiz! stress! this is worse than taking "O"s! haha! those who hv to do so much, take care! dun fall sick, coz that's the end liao! no lah, juz dun fall sick! very jia lat one!

Thursday, February 02, 2006

v.i = very irritating

sian. v.i coming up. XXX liao. (cny cant say 抹地). lol.