what men really meant...

It's a guy's thing.
Translation: There is no rational thought pattern connected with it and you have no chance at all of making it logical.

Can I help with dinner?
Translation: Why isn't it already on the table?

Uh-huh/ Sure, honey/ Yes, dear
Translation: (Absolutely nothing. It's a conditionde response.)

It would take too long to explain.
Transalation: I have no idea how it works.

Take a break, honey, you're working too hard.
Translation: I can't hear the game over the vacuum cleaner.

That's interesting, dear.
Translation: Are you still talking?

I've got my reasons for what I'm doing.
Translation: And I sure I hope I think of some pretty soon.

I can't find it.
Translation: It didn't fall into my outstretched hands, so I'm clueless.

What did I do this time?
Translation: What did you catch me at?

I'm not lost.
Translation: No one will ever see us alive again.

We share the housework.
Translation: I make the mess, she cleans up.

well, i got this frm today's newpaper. damn funny. i realised tat be it my dad, a fren or whichever guy; they'll all come out with lame (in the female race context) excuses to coax us. haha.

i love my girlfriends...

i love all of them.... (hey i did blog abt this though?)[sratching head now]
i guess i was thankful to marilyn, who 培ed me during like 55% of the perm. haha. (dun complain y 55% nia. muz be fair mah) thank god gt her. if nt i ll sure fall a slp during the perm; n mayb it might b a disastor. haha.

i kinda juz gt back frm sch. had the nafa test loh. so tired. since its free juz go loh. haha. (cos next time if take muz $$ one) its a fact tat since aft sec sch, my fitness lvl dropped drastically. u all might nt believe loh. really one loh. smelly smelly gt at least a silver during tat time. haha. i guess the reason/excuse could be no P.E (physical education). haha. missed those days. even sec 1 gt swimming loh. shiok loh. i think the doctor 害 me one loh. say tat apply tat cream cant go swimming. sianz loh. plus nt only staying fit; i m like losing my tan loh. haiz. turning white... gross loh. duno y girls nowadays like white? a healthy tan is good too. looks chio too loh. look at michelle chia. she's like super chio loh see damn chio rite. even i m a of the same sex oso thinks so. haha.

drifting off liao.

back to working out. i dun care liao. i think sat evening i go swimming. heck wad the doc says lah. swimming is fun. be it dry or wet. dry one can get $$ and workout the arms. wet one can workout the entire body, see hunks (depending on luck), get tanned, chill and juz relax. so wads wrong abt swimming? i love swimming loh. so wad no 身材. its my life wad. wahahaha.

hair

two years ago, i said bye bye curls hello straight hair. yesterday i said hello curls bye bye straight hair. no pictures yet. soon loh. haha.

close the god-damn door.

haha. mayb i m really an atheist. haha. i realized i kinda fuck care abt religion
what the heck. (kk, zelda we know liao. u kinda like hv 10 mins to blog leh.) haha. it seems like i hv lost my spirit in my work. or mayb to drive. i feel that i hv lost hw to design. or mayb wad to design. haha. (i tot i did decide roughly wad to do?) i guess i need to find tat back. i guess i need to revive myself. die n 复活. haha. mayb i shld try tat. so come on. give me a parang nw. (parang sounds more local) stab me 43 times. (julius caesar was stabbed 43 times, more heroic) den later call jesus christ to revive me like wad he did for judas. haha. juz crapping. haha. might nt be lame. might b offensive. haha. so pai sei leh. juz for fun hor.

another crazy idea.

i m now like currently listening to augustana's boston. i m thinking if i were to move out n go the boston to start my new life there. haha.
hw would i live in boston?
i ll b living in this really cozy apartment. simple furniture. mayb cottage style. haha. working at a local design firm. struggling with deadlines. probably the only asian there. wearing knitted sweaters when its cold. drinking hot chocolate from mugs. sitting at the coffee table in front of the fireplace drawing. mayb msning frens frm sg. refusing to club with colleagues. mayb hving a dog. most prob a retriever. mayb waiting for the right guy to show up too. taking long walks at central park with my dog. mayb i ll meet him some where there. haha. hoping life will be this peaceful.
just some crazy thought i hv.

my answer to marilyn's ring fananaza

chio rite... wahaha

here's another view.
the approx cost is abt US$1000. any nice guy out there wanna get for me can... wahahaha....

thnx elaine.

i m grateful i got it off my chest. its very hard. n heart aching. mayb she doesnt knw wad i mean n feel. i guess we all hv different views.
i do feel bad. i didnt mean to sound so harsh. y did u hv to miss interpret wad i meant. if u felt angered by my words, i m really sorry.

haiz

sometimes.. i wonder if i'm really like the way i behave in sch. mayb i'm nt. mayb deep down, i'm this person who thinks tat if i were to show my true self, everyone will be juz bored to death. haha. guess so. mayb i'm juz a overly in-depth person. mayb i'm over simplified. i duno. its tough to satisfy everyone. i mean EVERYONE. very.
mayb life is like this crazy service line job. serving everyone u meet, try to make them happy, sad, angry, shocked.. mayb so. den when u rest its probably death. haha. i'm nt suicidal.
i guess everyone is juz serving everyone else. haha. so i guess i shldn't be complaining. mayb letting ppl be who they are might be the best option. mayb, tat will make me even stronger. haha. we'll see.

i wanna club.....

i m like kinda bugged asked by amanda on her prom nite prep. flipping thru mags, thru shops, thru the web. looking for tat "perfect" dress. her theme for prom --> Las Vegas. some hw reminded me of clubs. [if u didn't know, i' m still a clubbing virgin]
ya, i 'm kinda pathetic. 19 liao. still kinda raw and ... haiz pathetic.

fuck. i m THAT old?

You Are 27 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Your Candy Heart Says "Get Real"

You're a bit of a cynic when it comes to love. You don't lose your head, and hardly anyone penetrates your heart. Your ideal Valentine's Day date: is all about the person you're seeing (with no mentions of v-day!) Your flirting style: honest and even slightly sarcastic What turns you off: romantic expectations and "greeting card" holidays Why you're hot: you don't just play hard to get - you are hard to get

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

so the true though...

ok here's the story.

shucks. i overslept. damn it. i missed my show!! AGAIN!! haha. no biggie lah.

ok so here it goes...

WE MADE ELAINE CRY!!!! WAHAHAHA. that was the plan. i guess it was a rather pleasant surprise. the hard work did paid off. we actually planned the entire party for a month. frm the day i told zulia and marilyn tat since elaine's leaving for futher studies till juz like yesterday.

i had my first time at escape. well, nt so scary leh.. haha. mayb the 360 degress thingy ba? haha.

back home. my entire body is like super aching loh. haha. tml still hv to go back sch. haiz.

met new friends. cool. hope to meet them up again. hehe.

hehe..

the entire party was a great sucess!! wooohoooo. damn tired though. i actually had like 30 mis of slp in the chalet. haha. i guess i ll rest like now. blog more abt it ltr.

I'm just girl next door.

Girl Next Door


Small town homecoming queen
She's the star in this scene
There's no way to deny she's lovely
Perfect skin, perfect hair
Perfumed hearts everywhere
Tell myself that inside she's ugly
Maybe I'm just jealous
I can't help but hate her
Secretly I wonder if my boyfriend wants to date her

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door

Senior class president
She must be heaven sent
She was never the last one standing
A backseat debutaunt
Everything that you want
Never to harsh or too demanding
Maybe I'll admit it
I'm a little bitter
Everybody loves her but I just wanna hit her

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door
Oh and I'm just the girl next door

I don't know why I'm feeling sorry for myself
I spend all my time wishing that I was someone else

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
I get a little bit, she gets a little more
She's Miss America and... she's Miss America
I'm just the girl next door...

nice song.. pai sei.. going song crazy liao. haha

i guess its the past..

i did forget him... i hv forgotten abt the entire thing... time to move on... hehe... ^^

For You, I Will

For You I Will (Confidence)


Wondering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair
round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will

Forgive me if I stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, i've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you

If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echos in every room
I would

That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do to get through to you

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will

my latest squeeze... his young though.. hehe... Teddy Geiger

isn't he cute... love those eyes...

hope all goes well

hope all goes well... there's like so much going on this mth (june).. i m starting sch on mon.. haiz. wish me/myself luck. haha. i m tired.. nites..