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Monday, March 30, 2009

me strong?

It's glad to know that there are many people around me so supportive and concern. Kudos to them. I'm fine. I have moved on and understood that it's just another step in life that I took. I learnt from my falls and possibily developed corns on my feet along the way to prevent getting hurt from any sharp corners.

Surprising as this maybe to some people, I'm abstaining from alcohol. People who know the reason, please just keep mum. Those who don't, just take it that I'm sorry I can't join you guys in any parties.

I need a clean slate. So I guess that's a start.


Saturday, March 28, 2009

i miss you.

Comparisons are easily done when you had the taste of prefection.

I tasted my prefection but let it go. And its my regret for that. It's not the height or the wealth or what mode of transport you have. Women just want the feel part. Of course there are exceptions where some are shallow and pursue material needs. You made me feel happy and perhaps whole. You may think that you're not the best, but you're my best. Even if the entire world deems you to be not even on par with him, you're better, in fact the best. Surprisingly, you have become my love. A term that I would refrain from using. I miss you. Can everything go back to what it was before? Can it? I desperately want that. Even if it was to be pretend for a day. I miss you.




trust.

simple a word it may be
yet complex a thought it would be.

people try very hard to earn it
yet people trample on it easily.

i placed my distance
but misjudged the distance.

would i ever find that chance?
that trust i place.


Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Yes I know I'm whiny

Shit I'm so going to be this insane old person when I hit my 23rd birthday with all these incessent ramblings and whines. PMS? Seriously I doubt that. Ok. Seriously I need to shut up and let me go!


Monday, March 23, 2009

This is insane!

Dell is taking their own sweet time with my order! Ok. I get that they have 101 other orders as well and some of which might be as urgent. Being a slave to computing technology, I am in desperate need of a computer! I want to facebook and blog and photoshop and do my work and msn and surf and watch movies and listen to music and the freaking list just goes on.

PLEASE HURRY UP!


Thursday, March 19, 2009

Oh well.

Enough! Seriously enough. I hate going in circles. SIGH.

Post note: There has been a sudden outburst on my blog. And I know that. Well, here's my final 2 cents: I am going to just write whatever shit I write and people can just continue being whatever shit they; and well it doesn't matter (low tone voice). If people want to get attention let them have it. Afterall its for all the wrong reasons. So I bo chap. :D I do have enough at hand to deal with too. -.-


:D

I ♥ my dad! He just made purchase from Dell for my new XPS laptop! And it's red! :D Now, how happy can a girl get? Well, all I got to do now is to wait for the shipment. Hopefully by next week? Zelda needs it by then for her Com 217 project. Dell, if you're reading this please process my purchase first? Please? Be my darling! Love ya!


Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Bye my love of 5 years.

My Dell of 5 years died on me yesterday. Autopsy was unable to detect the hard disk. Well, it did serve me well for that amount of years. And of course after all that abuse. SIGH!


Tuesday, March 17, 2009

I need MORE time!

Previously I did mention I need time. Now I need MORE time! For the effing school work! I just hate back to back stuff - tuition, quizzes, assignments. The list never ends. Damn it.


Monday, March 16, 2009

I have no more ideas for atas titles.

Pictures are up from the Bachelors' party on Friday. I know I should be writing my essay. Seriously, some times I do wish school would have some form of annual leave that students can take. Well, at least so to get a breather.

Don't get me wrong, I love being a student. That's for real. It's just some times you
do need a break from everything once in a while. And I need that break NOW!

I'm going to write the essay. So to end here's a big ass picture of me drinking.................. WATER! Gotcha!



Saturday, March 14, 2009

I'm a fake.

For all the 22 years of my life I have been living with a mask on. I know, it's wrong. I'm sorry, well I just can't get pass feeling secure and confident without putting no something to make me think that I can feel confident.

There are 101 things in life that I would so wish to have to courage and the fill to get done. I may present this rather cool image to people, however I'm very empty and lost inside. I can't seem to accept things about me being good or positive unless there's a comparison with another party. I know, it's unhealthy. That's me. And I really hate this. So just stop saying I'm perfect and all. I'm not!


Celibate.

Until I have sorted all my thoughts out, I am celibate. Shush about the meaning of celibacy. I know what it means. So ya. I am celibate. Am so tired. So shoo.


Friday, March 13, 2009

I need time.

It's all in this huge ball of mess now. My emotions and thoughts. Time is needed to find myself again.


Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Things I should do.

Had this rather emotional (not in terms of sadness) conversation with my mom. And I just fucking hate George W Bush even more. Dad's struggling with the mother-fucking crisis, and there's my school fees, Amanda's fees and Brenda to support. I have taken up more tuition jobs to support my lifestyle which has turned less extravagant and more modest. I am now contemplating to actually quit school and be a full time tutor. Well, the money is really good. And I can party any time I want to as well. Although it would be true that I won't be able to do my events which was my aim when/if I do graduate. Damn! Why isn't life like some MCQ paper, easy breezy? SIGH!


Monday, March 09, 2009

SOLD OUT! :(

Another concert that sold out before I could buy! First was Jason Mraz, now its Cats! Well, the student tickets are sold out! SIGH!!!!! I gave King Lear a miss last year because it was really WAY TOO EXPENSIVE!! $300!!! SIGH!

SIGH!


Some words.

For my motivation, inspiration and strength.

~In some way you barged in. Caught me off-guard. I am still uncertain. However, I think I could and it would be beautiful.


Thursday, March 05, 2009

YAY!

Finished my Com 225 marathon too! Now, I can have some me time for a while, there after I'll have to continue with my blog novel. Damn! I have put it aside for way toooooooo long! ><. Guilty as charged!


Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Tuition done!

My tuition marathon for the week has taken an end! Hurray for that. Well, its Com 225 assignment marathon time! Crap!


I blew $50+ yesterday.

After the retail therapy with Jiemei, my pocket felt the pinched. Now I get it. But I do miss my pretty friend. Well, we both have been rather busy. And I'm glad I made the decision to meet her up for a lunch spree. :D Money well spent though. And I didn't get the bag I wanted/needed. Zelda needs a new bag for school. SIGH. Hoping my tuition moolah comes in soon. ><. Need it for new laptop. ><.

I think I need some therapy for my kleptomania too. I haven't stole in a while though. It's one thing I got to really fix, just like how I did with my nail-biting habit. Zelda, you can so do it!


Monday, March 02, 2009

Chalet party.

I am in need of a chalet party. Well, I saw some photos of the newly renovated NSRCC chalet. And it looks chio! Why wasn't it as chio during my 21st??? I need to have some amends to that! Chalet party anyone? Of course with booze and food!!


Sunday, March 01, 2009

My Kids!

My current tutoring status: 4 Kids in 3 households. :D

There's siblings Farah & Farhan.
Farah's Primary 4 and Farhan's Primary 5. Well, they have 2 other younger siblings too. So it makes 4 kids in the family. BIG! These kids got me a card for my 22nd. :D My first musical birthday card! :D

Then there's my PRC 15 year old. He's really funny and ambitious. Well, till today I have no idea what's his name. Opps. ><.

My last kid is Ke Ying. She's super cute! She's Primary 2 but trying to be an adult. Restless during lessons but really cute! The mom's really nice too!

With all these kids, I might just head towards the teaching direction. /shrugs.