Mid-week.

Done with mid-week of the second week. Well, it's also 5 days after Sparky
s departure. Getting used to her absence has been pretty easy these days. School has gotten me busy with revision and projects.

It's our 4th month this Sunday. And Ray said something on Monday. It's sweet and so true.

Well. I think I'm a little hungry hence I can't really thing well. SIGH. Meeting the BFF later for studys and lunch. I hate waiting.

Finally.

Yesterday at about 5.50pm Sparky's body just could not take it anymore. So her body just decided to retire. My dear dog, my dear friend, my dear sister. She died yesterday evening. I'm grateful Ray stood by me and watch her take her last breathe.

I procrastinated about writing this entry. I guess its just me trying to tell myself not to think about it. Yes I am a runner. And what can I do about it? My dog isn't going to walk through my door and start licking me in the face. She isn't going to start scratching the door to inform me about bringing her for a walk. She isn't going to go bonkers about the food I'm eating.

Although Sparky never knew the human speech, she taught me more than anyone did. She taught me even though she may be of another animal species, unconditional love exists. In fact she taught be to look beyond color-blindness. She taught me how to be there for everyone. She taught me how to be more human. In fact I think she was more human than anyone of us. She knew how to be kind to unknown children in the park. She knew how to let others love her. She took in all our complains and never said a word about it.

It is hard. It is harder because I never knew what were Sparky's thoughts. It pains me even more because there is nothing I can really do for her. Unlike when another human being dies, at least the communication of human speech is there. My dog only barks and sniffs. She hardly whines. I realized most of the whining was often done by Cody. She brought a lot of joy to us. I still remember how she would not struggle when Amanda and I would try to fix her look with glasses and clothes. I remember how she hated the Barbie cars. I remember how she ran out of the (old) house once and ran down 4 floors, just to chase cats.

Although Sparky may be small in size, her heart and gut was way much bigger than she appeared to be. She was always so full of spark. Even when she was sick, she still would join in barking sessions with Cody. Even when I grew up and started to neglect her, she was still waiting at home for me unconditionally. Even when I got too busy and focus with the computer, she would be by my chair in my room just sitting beside me. She was always supporting me in everything I do. Just sitting there. Now. Her remains sit on the windowsill. She can't sit beside me anymore. She can't wake up suddenly when I just move my chair one bit anymore. She can't let me give her belly rubs anymore. I miss her. I miss her so dearly. I know nothing's gonna change.

Bye Sparky. We will meet someday again.

Day 3 - School

Ended class at 10am. Got belated xmas gifts from Jolyn. All beauty stuff. I'm so loved. Headed to Iluma for sits and arcade. Missed my secondary school arcade days. Missed those raffle tickets. Missed those raffle ticket redemption. Woots! I got a Pooh notebook and Mickey highlighter. Headed to National Library for stats studying. Met the boy. Walks with the boy. Dinner with the boy. Lost my right contact. Went home. Home stats study. Love the boy.

School - day 2.

Dad has decided to get us a wii! :D Means Raving Rabbits! And Sims!

Well. I have decided to love stats. I'm so getting that A. :D

Ox-eye Daisies.

To date, I am officially a sucker for these little flowers. Ox-eye daisies.

Well, Meg Ryan got me liking them. Remember that show she acted in with Tom Hanks? Not Sleepless in Seattle. Not Joe Versus the Volcano. It's You've Got Mail!

Ok. On top of the sucker for daisies part, I think I'm also a sucker for Tom Hanks/Meg Ryan rom-com movies. :S Actually I have watched Joe Versus the Volcano before. I was a really young girl at that time. Say 8? I reckon its the influence from my mom. She ADORES Tom Hanks. I think my mom likes actors that have some funny vibe in them. Richie Ren, Tom Hanks, Robin Williams. All guys who have acted in comedies. Hmmm.

Ok. Digression from topic. Yes. I'm annoyed that why local florists don't sell daisies. They sell gerberas. And I just don't like them. Perhaps its just me being a little prissy since Ray's ex-girlfriend like them. Still. I think daisies are unique and different. Here's another reason why:

Kathleen Kelly: I love daisies.
Joe Fox: You told me.
Kathleen Kelly: They're so friendly. Don't you think daisies are the friendliest flower?

1st week of 2010.

I can't exactly sleep tonight. And I'm actually typing my words wrongly. Well, I'm getting a headache from all the financial woes. Unpaid mobile bills, CNY attires to buy, textbooks to get and days to live too. On top of that, I realized I gained a whooping 7 kg after 3 months of relationship bliss.

Note to self:

• Lose 7kg and more
• Get a part-time permanent job with fixed income

On the topic of income, well, I studied design and had actually worked as a designer for a year. That does not include my 3 month stint at Frost & Sullivan as a graphics intern. Now I'm looking for some freelancing. I charge. So friends, no more free stuff. Well that includes treats. I will be charging at market rate and if you're friend, of course there will be a discount of 20% per service. Here is my online portfolio.

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

I have been reading this site for the past 2 days and I'm hooked. Clients From Hell.
Fucking funny! OMG. I am so reminded of days in Five Stars Tours and when working with "people" in a certain place.
Well I just hope I won't get to meet such retarded marketing people in the future. Thank god Frost wasn't that bad. Ken and Ramesh seriously made life easy.

School.

Since school's starting in about a week's time, I should do up a list of things I need for school.

1. A really NOISY alarm clock. Although there is nothing much I can do with the stupid 8.30am book in timings, at least I could do my utmost duty as a student and do the best I can! (Hey, I didn't lift those words from a certain Mr. Lee)
2. A good bag. Since I have given promise to the boy on getting good results, I think I'll need to bag the text books home from Clementi everyday. And as we all know, varsity books are extremely thick and heavy!
3. Geek vibes. Good grades are often in relation with geeks. So glasses - checked. Huge backpacks - uncheck.
4. Sit in the first row, if not second row of the lecture hall. Concentration is something I need too.
5. Lastly an undeterred heart. Concentration is key for me.

Happy New Year!

And school's starting in 10 more days. :S