weird.....

was reading xiaxue' blog again..... doubt the peeps in class reali understand or are open enuff to take in such stuff..... realli tired frm yesterday's "chonging" of ms tan..... kinda expected the feedback..... i guess all my 武功 for presentation 全废了..... i dun wanna blame the evironment tat i m in..... though i m realli tempted to..... still kinda miss huishi afzal they all..... though i noe they bully/dun lyk me..... at least i had my share of fun..... going to huishi's party on the 3rd..... wondering hws everyone nw..... actually i realli DO miss 4e3..... i feel lyk crying nw..... i feel realli constrain in wadeva i do..... i mean this..... i guess when u get older..... the new peeps around u get stricter and less forgiving..... notice the word "new"..... it means the new people u knw after u grow up..... sumthing lyk tat lah.....
i hate the me now leh..... i dun wanna be so reserve leh..... i wanna "flirt" with the guys..... be their part-time wife..... joke about everything..... tell dirty jokes without people shrinking away..... discuss what underwear is great for both sexes.....
yah..... we all hv to grow up..... i juz dun wanna..... i m nt happy..... there! i hv said it..... i DO miss 4e3..... u might say i m les or w/e..... but i love my sec 4 class-4e3..... i miss singing weird songs lyk "i wanna fuck a dog in the ass"..... and changing the lyrics to insult classmates..... haha.....
the funny thing is tat i dun realli miss my primary school peeps..... i guess wad mr sarchi (primary school principal; i m nt sure if this is the spelling) said is true..... quoting, " u will nt miss the friends here, it will be the friends u make in secondary school who leave the most lasting memories"..... yah..... i did change a bit..... but tats the meaning..... i guess i will hv to take action soon..... for wad i m nt saying yet..... ok lah..... maybe some gathering loh..... the special thing would be to communicate with the 4e3 peeps who are overseas..... this is juz an idea..... haiz..... sad post.....