Under all the layers of my superficial happiness, its all the troubles and fears and sadness one can think of. In these 19 years that I have lived, people would look at me and say I'm a happy child. But am I that way?
Yeah, true that as a child I really felt better and happier. With the utter comparison to my recent life, I realised that I kinda missed my dear childhood. Problems from family, friends, environment, studies, love, work etc all appear. Sometimes I really would like to take a long break from all these. So that I would be able to find my REAL laughter again.
I don't wanna grow up. It's a scary process. I still wanna be able to look up at the adults from a shorter height. When people all just wanna change for you and not the other way round.
So what if I'm easily found out. How much have you found? Or rather how much have you NOT found?
Contradictory. Fuck. Everyone's so contradictory to their own thoughts and words. There are opportunities in the world. Fuck that sentence. Opportunities are for those who grasp for one. Fuck that too. Do people who are trying to grasp for one get one? Rarely. Rarely do these people get it. So get how contradictory life is?
Oh another one. 好人有好报，坏人有坏报。 Fuck that too. People are always sterotyping one another. One question. Don't you get tired? Don't you think labeling are meant for canned foods? So humans ARE canned foods.
I guess people just don't get it. Maybe I'm the only one who doesn't get it. Fuck life.
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