Fake

In many ways I'm wearing this mask to hide myself.
Seriously I know its really silly.
But in some way this builds up my self-esteem and in ways make me feel stronger.
I used to (and still am) living by this ideology that if I were pretend that I'm confident, then I will feel so and lastly become so.
It's just so hard living.
Why are there so many things that we have to put up with and make pretenses that everything is fine?
I hate life.
I hate the fact that human beings are so complicated.
Why can't everything be simple like a piece of bread or a cup of water?