xtremely stressed up

it is now week 16 of the sem. last 2 weeks ago was the final submision of the lighting project. for sum strange reason, i got to redo the entire light. during the process of making the light(for the submision on week 14) i totally lost myself n broke down. this is so not me. i wasn't like tat when i was in sec sch. things hv change so much. i guess i hv been taking things a little too seriously. i think tat i hv been lying to myself all this while. i hate this me. i wish i could be s carefree s i was b4. den came the second light. followed the lecturer's instructions but nothing seem to work. it totally sucked. as usual i broke down again. i really need a breather. mayb i'll go on a holidae tats if i dun hv work. i guess i really need a break. hope tat i can get this break soon..