Well.

Sorry for the lack of updates. I HAVE been really busy. Just finished that Jung Jun Hao's rather tedious group project. Seriously. That dude needs a revolver. He has issues man. Sometimes lecturers also need to understand students are people so as themselves. And people are just as flawed and emotional. Wasn't that outburst during the mid-terms enough for him to reflect about his actions? Doesn't Virgina Tech strike a bell? Or since being in Singapore, he should read up on the various news that took place this year here about students. I guess innocence wouldn't very much save his life if he was at knife point. OMG. Should have so done that in poly. After all we had endless supply of penknives in the school. Tan Hee Kiah was still at least smart enough to leave almost immediately that Virgina Tech thing happened.

And I thought Singapore was a copycat society.

P.S: Seriously if you think that I really do mean what I say, then you seriously need mental help.

:D.

After that clubbing dry spell of almost 3 months, I headed homebound to St. James where EVERYTHING first started. :D. After all my social drama and boy drama, it's been a while since I last enjoyed ANYTHING. :D.


Oh. On top of that, I bagged home a number. ~Comtemplates to call/contact.

Hi, it's ION!

Just got back from a little visit with Elaine to ION. And I stumbled upon....
















STEVE MADDEN!!!

Seriously, I can never get enough of shoes. I NEED more. You know I have learnt in marketing that a good marketeer will know how to turn a want into a need. Well. I suppose the marketing team for Steve Madden, Jimmy Choo, Manolo Blahnik can seriously cease to exist. Just the designs and thought put into each shoe are the best marketing concept that anyone can come out with. Sigh. I need a great pair of shoes. Damn. The shoe feitish is zooming in soon!



Oh, did I say I got the job? I did. So income for my shoe hunger.

Sliimy!

After a simple curious look on my twit page, I'm hooked on Sliimy! Haven't you heard indie's my love! :D ENJOY~!

Purple!

I have purple-fied myself! :D

Diet.

Well, I guess the interview went well. After some blunders and careful analysis with Garry, I conclude the result of my performance: OK. Plus actually I didn't really finish studying ALL insanely long 8 chapters. Stopped after 6. HAHAHA. And I believe that I didn't really screw up much with the paper. HAHAHA.

Time to get writing. Apologies for the really brief entries. There was the exam and that interview. Oh well. Topic of the day: dieting.

My Swiss cheese asked me what was it I did to actually lost so much weight? Ok, I'm human and hence I'll expose the most important secret to any girl. I'm 1.7m tall and currently I weigh 60kg. 7 years ago, I was at my heaviest of 71.5kg. Well, I'm dead serious about this. Of course it was a period of 7 years to get me where I am today. In between, I maintained at 65kg, and that was for almost 4 years. Until last year. I had that eating disorder and poof~ 60kg. Actually, I think it's coming back to me. That eating disorder. I don't eat as much, in fact I might be hungry but I just don't have the appetite or interest to eat. Of course I love my food, but I suppose it's just some weird phase I'm going through. Ok whatever, you guys want to think of it as me dieting then fine. Though like any other girl (always not satisfied with her weight), I do understand and know that what I'm doing is wrong and harmful. Hey! But I can't help it. I just don't eat. Not like I can help it.

Ok, I'm going to attempt to eat.

I can't sleep.

In another 9 hours, I'll be on the 29th floor at Shaw Towers. I've picked out my interview outfit, my certificates, printed out my CV and packed some graphic samples. And I keep thinking I have left something out. :S.

HAPPY!

A short one before I hit COM 240: I've gotten a reply for my internship application! :D

Pictures of You.

Pictures of you, pictures of me. Remind us all of what we could have been.

This line reminds me of the number of failed potential boyfriends I screwed up (the chances with) and those who screwed up their chances with me too. I'm feeling lonely. I miss having a man around. I did have one for a brief stint. Sheesh about it already.

Well, I'm single and I think I ready to take on another dating case! Who's next? Please fill in that application form. And you'll be carefully screened for the audition. Thanks.

You know what?

I actually like blogging. I do. I actually like writing about all those controversial stuff here. I do. Anyone could argue that I'm vying for attention etc etc. But didn't I learn from my Psy class about confounding variables.

Blogger starts blog. Blogger writes stuff. Since blog is open to the Web, readers read. If blogger writes well, readership increases. Readers encourage blogger to write more through comments etc etc. Blogger writes on.

Well, it just goes on into this amazing loop called the vicious circle. So moral of the story: if you don't want potential trouble, don't bother having a social life at all. Bye~

No to RAPE.

Well, in the law jurisdiction of Singapore, forced penile-vaginal sex between married couples is an A-Ok. WTF is this!!! If the wife doesn't what sex and the husband just feels horny, and just wants to take the urge off on the wife; it is fucking allowed here????!!!! Seriously, we are at the age of gender equality. So why are such primitive and barbaric ideas still around??

This is extremely disrespectful to women. If married women aren't protected against such simple yet overlooked rights, then I would advise everyone from the female community in Singapore NOT to get married with a man. (Same sex marriages are appliable, doh!) Well, you might argue and debate over how much the man loves you etc etc. Fine. But what if one day he goes into this sudden rage, who are you going to turn to? Who are you going to approach and let known that you have been raped by your own man? NO ONE! Remember, being given the opportunity to be a woman is in fact not as easy as it seems. We get a shit-load of body problems to tend to: periods + cramps, Brazillian waxes, breasts + bras, make-up + dressing up etc etc. And to add, these days we also head out to the urban jungle and fight for our survival among men to bring home the bacon. Plus the expectation to continue the bloodline of the human race? So aren't women fantastic? And henceforth, why are we fucking denied such a right? Don't we even deserve the respect for being women when men have always had that self-assumed ideology that women have to bow down to them. (Ok, I'm beginning to sound sexist.:S) I DO love my penises and how a man would treat me when in love etc etc. But my point here is women too deserve the respect of what of a human being. Isn't rape like stealing from a women her vagina?

Well, see that image right above this post and the flashing one by the side. Click on either. Sign that petition against this absent law. Sign it to justify the respect for women!

My Handwriting.

Well, I take a lot of pride in the way I write my words. So out of curiousity late in the night, I decided to do a handwriting analysis. So here's my results:


This personality profile is based on the writing of Zelda Woo created at the website: Handwriting Wizard.com - Handwriting University's Official automated personality report creator based on standardized basic personality traits as taught through Handwriting University's Certification Level Program.

Zelda is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.

Zelda will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Zelda an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Zelda is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Zelda is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Zelda doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Zelda will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Zelda believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Zelda is secretive(?). She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

You know I doubt so, since the blog and all. :S

Because Zelda has zigzagged shaped 'm' and 'n' hump, Zelda is an analytical thinker. Her mind sifts and examines facts. She interprets all facts by separating them, breaking them down, and organizing them from a critical point of view. This pattern of clarifying facts contributes to her strong reasoning ability. Zelda's mind is constantly analyzing all situations that she encounters.

This I got to agree with. So people stop asking me to stop thinking. -.-

Zelda's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Zelda that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Zelda also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Zelda is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Zelda's self-concept is artificially low. Zelda will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Zelda to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Zelda is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

Yes, surprisingly I do have rather low self-esteem and self-concept. Yup, and I'm still working on it. :D

Zelda is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Hmmm. Well, I can be if I want to. That's that old saying which just settles all.

Something is incomplete in Zelda's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Zelda's sexual needs.

Zelda has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

Ok. I'm a VERY curious person. Hence this test, and hence many other things that I have done over the years and gotten my fingers burnt too. :S.

Zelda has a very unusual lower zone y loop. If the data input is correct, Zelda's y or g is large and has triangle shape to the lower loop. This is not a common trait, but the implications are very interesting. As you begin to study handwriting analysis, you will learn any loop indicates imagination. This lower loop indicates the amount of imagination Zelda has regarding sex and physical things. Her lower zone stroke is large, so her sexual imagination is large and open. Furthermore, because the loop has a triangle shape, this indicates a particular curiosity with certain aspects of sexuality. In a nutshell, Zelda is open to some very new ideas sexually and is willing to try anything once. I'd say Zelda is quite a dynamic and playful lover. Watch out world!

Ermm. I'm not too sure about this. Ok. I should stop the innocence. Yes. I do have my fantasises, just as many other healthy and perfectly normal people.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Zelda has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Zelda fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Zelda has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Zelda seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Zelda seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.

I guess everyone has had a past. But to me this part of the analysis seems rather generic. It would be able to actually fit anyone with even a slight hint of sadness in their past. So, this part, I don't know.

I guess boredom ends here. Lids are shutting. Good night.

My darlings.

Recently I have been marathon watching Sex and the City. So when I heard Charlotte going something about girlfriends being soulmates instead of the opposite sex, I realized it's true. :D

Met up with my darling Marilyn at her place. I love that gossip session we shared! You go get that swimming gear soon! Poolside gossip is much much much better. :D

This was taken during our K.L. trip. Damn, baby, we need another holiday. Of course with the girls as well. I would write more about Marilyn but in some way or another I guess the words just won't do much justice to what we have shared, had shared and are sharing.

Then there's my Jiemei too! I miss her dearly. Well, I understand she's busy with work, especially after that promotion, school and life. I'm fine to be on the sidelines as long our friendship lasts. :D Remember I still love you no matter what! :D Just don't leave me alone too!

Of course there's Elaine. :D My Swiss Indo cheese. Oh, it should be the other way round: Indo Swiss cheese. Opps. Elaine's the friend in life that doesn't really judge. She gives the more neutral comments and opinions. Perhaps the most politicially diplomatic among the 5 of us. Well, that's her. And I guess it's nice to have someone like that in your life.I wish we had more better pictures. Oh well. I'm super happy you're back!

Lastly, Zulia. Sigh. She's my goof girl. By means, the girl that does all the silly and probably no-brain usage stuff but I still love her very much. And no matter how much I get impatient and annoyed by her, end of the day I still want what's best for her. Till today, I still remember very clearly our big fight over the phone. I guess why I'm still sticking to this friendship is because she was always there for me whenever I fell. Which dates all the way back in secondary school. I still remember how she actually stood up to the entire class of 20 for me. Yes, it wasn't a lot of people but for Zulia to actually speak up to a crowd is a big thing to begin with.

Well, this sums up my girls. Oh and, I have finished the entire 6 seasons of Sex and the City, and the movie too. I suppose now is the waiting time for Grey's Anatomy season 6, and the 2nd movie of Sex and the City.

WOW

Well, I know I might be a little slow, but I just got back from Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen. OMG. It's much much much much much better than sex. If I were to use a sexual expression for the movie, it would be like seeing a 8 inch dick hard for the first time. WOW. You know which part I like best? When the Decepticons merged into one BIG machine: DESTORYER. Hohohohoho.

People who have yet to see the movie, I strongly recommend you go this instant. Seriously it's just one of those movies that you HAVE got to watch on a wide screen. Plus I think it would work wonders as a date movie too. Imagine Transformers at GVClass. HOT!

I want to watch Coraline when it opens. And Jo introduced me another movie: UP! Hehe. Damn. It's all the cartoons. Whatever.

Back to Transformers. From a female's perspective, I thought the movie was great. Love the action and visual effects. Now here comes the rather controversial thought: Megan Fox is just another ORDINARY girl. Boys face it. Any other girl can look as hot as her if given the right tools and opportunity to use them. Yes. She is a pretty girl with well-endowed features. So, are you guys just going to prove my point right that the male population probably uses a lot of their dick to think? So, as what Nity puts it sex is a secondary instinct. And this is what I gather: Sex is just an optional instinct that we need to satisfy, unlike hunger and thirst. Then, why is it so that guys just only think Mega Fox is the only girl around to satisfy this OPTIONAL instinct?

OR perhaps it's media at work. Yes. Let's all blame it on Hollywood. Shia LaBeouf's the hero, and people guys idolize this thought of being one. Yes, I'm admitting to sexist charges. However so, don't you think by idolizing something that has pratically a zero percent chance of happening, is kinda silly? And really dumb? Ok. Fantacies are fine. I have them too. But to go on and on about it, is seriously like "don't you have anything better to do?". This also touches my personal belief of choice. Why blame the media, when you actually have made the choice to watch the show, made the choice to think that Megan Fox is pretty and hot, made that choice to go on and on about her, and made that choice not to move on. I too have made a choice. A choice to stand up and tell you guys to shut up. Perhaps I should give her a photoshop, then we'll see if the bro's up or flacid.

You know, while I'm reading back, I get that I'm pissed, I get that I'm being woman and emotional right now. But having to live and deal with people telling me to be more of a man, is NOT easy at all. Well, I guess my testorterone level within is pretty low. Sidetrack a little, ok, my inner lesbian self's thinking that Megan Fox's hot but she hell is not do-able to me. I'm still Katy Perry all the way.

Ok, back. Maybe I'm seeming a little intimitating here. But I'm hell as trying my best to be level-headed while writing this. Perhaps my intentions are there but the application (use of words) is not the right one. To put this in Singlish: Aiya, like that loh.

Updates!

I guess I'd better write something before my glitterati status goes to normal. Well. Just recently like 30 minutes ago, my L.V Noe bag has finally finished it's life course. With all that abuse I battered on the bag, I guess it outran it's lifespan. Thank you. Well, time to get a new bag. I NEED A BIG HARDY BAG! Maybe I should take out all the design stuff in my NUM bag. /shrugs.

Moving on to something else. I have so decided on the names of my (future) kids: Aiden(boy) and Alexia(girl). :D I like the names. I actually decided on Alexia first, and in a way was still uncertain about what to name my son. Until I saw Sex and the City. I just think it's a beautiful name. I'm not naming my kid after that character, any character. I'm not like some of those irresponsible parents that name their kids after things that the kid might despise, i.e. a game or booze? I like those names so kids, Mommy's giving them to you. :D Ok, I seem a little weird now. :/

My current song addiction: John Mayer's Gravity. It's on the blog. Remember this? Well, I got addicted to him soon after. Another J in the stash of Zelda's marvelously favorite male singers. Well, there's Jason Mraz, Jamie Scott, James Morrison and Jamie Cullum. Now there's John Mayer! :D I wish they would have a concert altogether!

Steak vs. Veal

I may have had an eating disorder a year ago, but I have come to overcome that (aside from random food refusal) and pick up my fork and start eating.

In my recent tweet, I stated I craved for steak. Yes. And I well, sort of, fulfilled it. Wasn't the best steak but it will do. You know what do I actually craved for? Filet Mignon. Also known as the tenderloin of the cow. Of course the meat has to be prepared medium rare. Enough pink and blood, so that the meat will taste sweet with a tinge of that metallic taste from the blood. Something like this. Just imagine the soft tender meat melting away in your mouth. Accompanied with a tangy yet savoury mushroom truffle sauce. Well, that spells heaven. Still looking for that perfect steak. Oh well.

Then there's VEAL. It's the meat from a calf. Ok. I know some people thinks it's unethical but once you have tasted veal, you'll just want to shut up about the ethics. Seriously you're going to eat the animal in the end. Might as well when it's at its best. In fact, veal is much sweeter and much more tender than the older counterpart. Yes I have had veal before. And that reminisce of the taste is just too daunting that it is dearly missed. The meat seriously just melts in you mouth, even if cooked thorough. There is just no such thing as well done. Well done tastes just as good as medium rare or even rare.

Since I'm on the subject of meat, I have eaten venison and ostrich before. Both are gamey and really nice. I prefer venison over ostrich though. Perhaps it's the cooking.

Ok. Cold Storage here I come for that tenderloin!